its all abt ME

2009-10-28T21:42:00.002+08:00

nearly 2 weeks have gone.
dat u have been away.
its pain for me to count e daes.
for u to b back.
luckily im bz w attachment.
so my mind can b distracted w e work loads.
but its onli distracted half of e day.
n wat did i do e other half?
tinking abt e memories dat i had spent time w u.
counting e daes for u to b back.
its killing me so much.
im waiting for u to come hm.
time.
pls turn e clock fast.
s i miss him much.

i hv spending e time doing attachment.
my last term.
my last posting of attachment.
n after dis.
i will in my reality world.
no student fare.
no exams.
no school uniform.
no more of going home early due to time table.
gonna miss those moments dat i had in sch.
with e people dat i always w.
memories since starting of e term.

im gonna hv ite bshn alumni on e 11th dec.
not sure if i can go.
hopefuli mak will let me.
s sis big dae is on dat weekend.

2009-08-31T20:25:00.001+08:00

for u. mr t

dis part is reali meant for me?
i guess so.

'..ku akui aku merindukan mu
meski ternyata tak pernah kau merindukan ku
tapi ku tak pernah bisa
melakukan apa yang seharusnya ku inginkan
kerna memang kau bukan milikku..'

2009-08-12T23:17:00.000+08:00

im nt at hm nw.
i didnt go hm.
run away.
haha.
mcm paham je aku ni.
im overnght-ing at my aunt hse at pasir ris.
near to sch compare to my hse.
hehe.

had my sims training js nw.
1600-1800hrs.
its abt code blue.
haha.
class was being split into 2.
my grp done e theory part 1st.
didnt concentrate dat much in e theory part cos e other half was doing e cpr.
climbing up bed n do e cpr.
cool kape.
haha.
den its my grp to do it.
haha.
unlucky me.
was chosen for e role play.
me, azmi, nusrat n joseph.
was tagging nusrat all e way seh cos i was so blanko.
n thx 2 azmi.
he 'guided' us through e whole role play.
n e lecturer praise dat our grp was e best.
peweet.
power!
hehe.

im nt gg 4 dis coming camp.
tk ramai budak yr 2 going for e camp.
haha.
dis weekend im having family dae under mosque.
dnt even noe wats e prog 4 e dae.
most probably will b helping out in giving out e tulang.
yum yum!
haha.

7th wk is coming.
n i hv 2 more wks b4 my exams.
gosh.
time passes fast la seh.
i didnt even start doing my revision.
aziah!
pls start ur revision nw!
pemalas nk mampos!
haha.
n after exams, der will b attachment.
n dis term attachment will b different.
cos i will b having a nght shift.
haha.
hearing all those stories frm e experienced nurses.
haha.
doa je la k.
tabahkn hati mu aziah.
haha
all e best to me.

puasa coming.
n my daes r all burnt w mosque activities.
so huever wanna iftar-ing w me, tell me in advance.
its almost full 4 my ramadhan mth.
hehe.
=)

2009-08-08T15:46:00.000+08:00

hello.
im back.
im still alive.
haha.
kinda busy with school work and stuffs.
recently had my psychiatric class test.
haha.
ok2 la i did dat paper.
slept twice for it.
hehe.

date dues for projects are js around e corner.
for both behavioural sci II and psychiatric.
had finished my psychiatric s its a solo project.
i did anorexia nervosa for it.
i tink der is js some part of e project dat i have not yet complete it.
but i dono at which area.

celebrated nurses dae las mon in sch.
celebrated js with e yr 2s.
had it at e mlt.
had fun.
1st few performers didnt make e atmosphere alive.
till 1 of e performer frm e wda class performed a bangra dance.
n its a she.
power to e max la.
e background was cheering for her n make extra sound.
den e las performer.
didnt expect dat he can sing well.
cinta arjuna - malay n chinese version.
wanna hu?
it was my class advisor.
wow.
n nw, wenever we met him in class.
we will sing dat song, n he continues.
cute kn?
oh ya.
n hes fav song is nobody by wonder girls.
e whole cohort made him dance.
hehe.
cute. super.
haha.

2009-07-12T12:18:00.003+08:00

las tues i had 3 hours break.
n tues is psychiatric dae.
all the way psychiatric.
since azmi drives, e gang went to popeyes at changi airport for lunch.
parked e car at t3 n had our lunch.
we laughed w e jokes n stupid acts made by us.
after ate lunch, we went to t1 for a walk.
after t1, we travelled to t2.
we took skytrain to reach those terminals.
reached t2, we saw dis shop 'urbanconcept'.
my legs were itchy to go in to e shop s i saw a canvas bag of elmo.
haha.
freak of elmo i m.
recce e shop n saw a finger puppet, dat comes along w landyard.
i was to excited to c dat.
i bought it, elmo comes w blue landyard.
buddy bought cookie monster w red landyard.
i wanna red landyard, so we exchanged.
so cool.
nxt attempt will b e elmo wallet, followd by dat canvas bag.
haha.
a BIG FAN of elmo.
i had collection of elmos.
soft toys - big, medium, small.
tissue w elmo.
facial blotters w elmo.
hp pouch is elmo.
wallpaper is elmo.
small bag is elmo.
haha.
alot la.
so ppl.
if u wana get me a bdae present, u shld noe wat to buy for me k?
hehe.

alhamdulillah.
i have passed my BCLS course.
basic cardiac life support.
2 days of tension n stress helps me to concentrate more on the practice.
morning practice, afternoon test.
during eh 1st dae, it was difficult.
cos i didnt noe nothing abt all these.
slowly adapt e environment, i managed to do it.
1st dae was being tested to do infant chocking n cpr.
i get confused w chocking n cpr wen it comes to e test time.
instead of choking, i did cpr.
haha.
phase test was the one man cpr.
waduh.
tu lagi tension cos i nd to do 5 cycles = 30 compressions 2 ventilation.
non stop cycle.
by e time im in the 3rd cycle, im out of breathe to do e ventilation.
after i did everyting of e 5 cycles, e batteries of e mannequin died.
n at e same time during e test, it was being printed out, to c if i did e cpr withing e time xpected.
i was kanchiong s i was scared to do it all over again.
but i took it w open arms.
at least i can do it over again w e reason of batteries.
e lecturers actd fast n changed e batteries.
n slamat, i dont nd to do it again!
it print smoothly.
so overall, i passed all e test w 1 attempt.
alhamdulillah.

2009-06-28T00:47:00.005+08:00

2 daes posted in imh..
reali test my patience..
reali..
i cnt admit dat dis 2 daes of posting is much more challenging den e previous posting dat i had b4..

e '1st dae' of attachment..
after being 3 daes of approved leave..
admit dat i was lost..
nt onli me, but buddy too..
so my colleagues hu was in e same shift s me..
showd me e patients hu is e do n dnts..
haha..
so i js nodded my head..
den while dis patient was walking here n der..
w his pillow at his hand..
he walkd towards me n slapped me..
haha..
b4 dae, eqa asked me to elak..
i was blankd, reali blanked..
but luckily his slap was nt s hard s i get b4 frm a fren of mine..
since den, i was phobia to go near him..
might nt noe if i get another slap frm him..
haha..
luckily der was abel to b my pillar frm hiding..
thx abel!

den, i sat with dis grp of ppl..
hu was doing their art..
i was indeed surprised w e talents dat dey had in dem..
drew exactly dat was drawn in e book..
den dis malay pakcik, askd my name..
i told him..
den askd me if i was married..
i said no..
n noe wat he askd me?
askd me if i wanna married to him?
i lookd at eqa, she lookd at me..
we were speechless..
so i js go e flow..
keep saying no n no..
haha..
seram dok!

den on e same dae, after dinner..
dis pakcik was critisizing us..
he even sumpah firdaus to b stupid forever..
gosh!
hearing all those wrds dat came out frm his mouth..
i felt like i wanna talk back..
nt even me..
e rest hv dat same intention too..
but we nd to b strong in facing all dis environment..

e las dae of attachment..
we had a debrief w her..
so indeed a funny debfrief..
she told e grp abt wat she like abt firdaus..
she like e way he walks..
haha..
like a penguin..
haha..
after e debrief, we went back to wrk..
so i was sitting w cute patient of mine..
loking ard e patients if dey r doing fine..
so i was eyeing dis patient hu was on wheelchair..
he hv wobbly legs..
he stand up, unbalance n fell..
i quickly support his back..
n noe wats e nxt injury?
he slammed my bone fingers at e end of e point of e chair..
noe hw painful it was?

we ended our dae early..
haha..
i indeed enjoy e posting alot..
makes e bonding w e grp more tighter..
n ups n dwns doing attachment w buddy..
love u ppl!

below r e photos dat me n buddy had during e student seminar..
enjoy..
btw shes taken!
haha..

2009-06-24T22:47:00.006+08:00

international student seminar 2009..
is officially OVER..
hehe..
i had fun, reali..
e team mates hu is so gerek..
didnt fail to make me laugh..
n nt onli dat..
i get to take pics w e 'hunky bong ki ki' frm germany..
haha..
wanna c e pic?
haha..
i will js upload a few pics frm each dae..
is dat ok w u?
e rest i shall post it to my facebook..
hehe..

dae 1..
its an opening ceremony..
progs hv been lined up for us..
s told in e previous entry, im nt in e same grp s dem..
so e new 1 is kinda ok for me..
though me n buvi r e onli gals in e grp..
buvi didnt fail to make me stop laughing during e opening ceremony..
safwan was even wondering y me n buvi were laughing non stop..
do u wanna noe y?
cos e 'hunky bong ki ki' sat rght behind our row..
haha..
buvi actuali askd me to zoom in n take pics of dem..
n yes!
i did to capture dem..
haha..
in e afternoon, after lunch..
we went for heritage tour..
went to suntec city area n raffles place..
heard frm e international grp dat dey r kinda disappointed..
cos dey didnt get to go to heritage places such s kampong glam, chinatwn, etc..
oh well..
me n buvi had our own world..
n again..
after e visiting, we went to vivo for dinner..
i didnt went w e current grp s 1 of e member is a vegetarian..
n i seldom eat dat green stuffs..
furthermore, dey wanna eat at chinatwn..
n i was 50/50 abt it too..
so i went to joind my former grp for dinner..
n guess wer we had our dinner?
PIZZA HUT!!
haha..
lapar dok..
fazli didnt joind us..
he went hm early, s usual..
haha..

dae 2..
dis dae was a sleepy dae for me..
i actuali slept during e whole talk n presentation..
haha..
ders no buvi, no safwan, no fareed..
so left me, sam n husni..
haha..
pathetic dnt we?
luckily by lunch, buvi n fareed r back..
after lunch we went to y.o.g learning centre..
n guess wat me n buvi do in e middle of e talk?
we slept!
n we sat at e 2nd row..
haha..
nght has come..
n its time for our social nght under e student seminar..
everyone was looking smart n pretty..
it was held in sch, of course..
n e indoor stadium was turnd into a clubbing hall..
haha..
buddy was enjoying herself..
till she dragged me along..
gosh! yakdush!
i didnt went dwn to e 'dance floor'..
so took e opportunity to take more n more pics w e honkers s well s e 'hunky bong ki ki'.. haha..
best!
dey even put their arm ard my shoulder!
left e hall ard 2130hrs..
if nt i wanna stay till it ends..
luckily my memory card is oredi full..
haha..
went to take cab back to pasir ris s family was at aunt hse..

dae 3..
we had bfast, closing ceremony n lunch..
dats it!
short n sweet..
after e seminar, me n e rest sat in c1 to hv our lunch..
dey bullied me by irritates e balloon sound..
haha..
i dnt like, u noe?
haha..

overall, i had enjoyed myself..
i forgot eevrything abt attachment till todae comes..
i hv 2 more daes of attachment b4 e term ends..
n both daes i will b in e afternoon shift..
at imh!
haha..

2009-06-21T22:49:00.005+08:00

HAPPY FATHERS DAY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAK AZAH!

ydae was an embarrassment dae 4 me..
had to do replacement ydae..
as usual, abah sent me to wrk since im in e am shift..
so soon after i reachd lobby..
i thought i met my sn (haha!)..
so i msgd him if he had cut his hair botak..
no replied since..
break time comes..
n nurul was der w me too..
so i told her abt e flash met at e lobby..
few mins later,e same prsn dat i saw at e lobby was in front of me..
haha..
i got e rong prsn la seh!
dis prsn hv e same appearance s him..
e tone colour of e skin, e height n even e hairstyle..
BOTAK!!
haha..
so i talkd to nurul in malay since he will understand in eng..
talkd abt my embarrassment n everyting..
den he received a call..
n hu wanna guess nxt?
.
..
...
....
.....
....
...
..
.
he spoke in malay la seh!
yakdush!!
another paiseh moment..
means he understands every single wrd dat i talkd to nurul abt wat had hapend..
dat time of moment i felt ashamed, totali..
i felt my cheecks were flushing red..
i dnt even dare to stand up to throw away e rubbish..
i dnt even dare to look his face..
i lookd dwn till hes out of e rm..

den few mins later..
dis staff askd y we break together..
i didnt sae much..
i kp quiet..
i was wondering, r dey making use of us?
haha..
b4 we were attached to e ward, dey still survives w e staffs rght?
or r u looking dwn on us dat we r still a STUDENT nurse?
being frustrated, n nt yet finish my break time..
i left e rm n continue w my wrk..
lucky dat dae was my las dae of wrking der..

todae we had a dae out..
went out ard 1130hrs..
celebrating fathers dae s well s kak azah belated bdae (ydae)..
went to furama to hv our hi tea..
abg mahathir tagged along..
so we sat at furama frm 1200hrs - 1500hrs..
haha..
long kn?
we eat, chit chat n den continue eating..
haha..
after dat, we went to watch movie at marina sq..
at las i get to watch nght at e museum 2..
haha..
i noe its too late..
but still i enjoy e movie, together w e ppl ard me..
parents slept in e middle of e show..
haha..
movie ends, n waitd for fazli to come to collect his stuffs for tmrw event..
went to teban nxt, to c e barang berkat for sis wedding..

tmrw is e big event..
international student seminar 09..
will last for 3 daes..
im still sad due to e las min change of grouping..
i still wan dem to b w me..
tmrw will b e las journey dat i hv w dem..
sad kn?
=(

2009-06-18T21:57:00.002+08:00

early in e am..
i get upside dwn w my sis..
smpikn sis kate, nxt time dnt wrk in e am animore..
haha..
smlm ok wen i askd her to send..
pagi2 da buat prangai..
ish3..
haha..
salah aku jgak, da biase bapak anta gi keje..
haha..
nxt wk no more cos i will b in imh posting..
but 3 daes gone due to student seminar..

left wrkplace at 2pm..
make my way to sch to attend briefing for e student seminar..
waited for nicholas n hamni at c1..
while waiting, mazni was der to accompany me..
talkd abt cp life..
n ya, she got e same hp s me..
but different color..
hehe..
so up we went to lifeskills dept to meet ms felicia..
n she broke dis sad, sad news to me..
im no longer in e same grp s dem..
no longer with fazli, hamni, nicholas, samantha, sherlin n mariam..
im so sad la..
i cant spend my student seminar w dem..
gosh..
i miss dem la..
i dnt even remember wens e las time e grp meet each other..
i miss samantha's giler2..
i miss fazli's blur sotong..
i miss mariam's enthusiasm..
i miss hamni's confident..
i miss sherlin's teamwork..
i miss nicholas's speech..
overall, i miss all of dem..
so sad, its so sad..
im gonna let my sadness of to mr calvin wen i meet him..

after e briefing,accompanied buddy to lot 1..
to find for her black shoe for being e emcee for e event..
we were like js finish shopping la..
me w BIG bag, which in e bag, ders 3 small bags (goodie bag frm student seminar)..
n another small bag dat im holding..
buddy w her blazer set, with e small bag n her bag..
haha..
waiting for her bf in front of cotton on..
n im still w my uniform la at dat time of moment..
haha..
soon upon his arrival, we went to bata..
i get e most high heel dat i can find n ask for her bf opinion..
haha..
kene biasekn tau..
nanti da kawin kene pakai heels jgak..
hehe..
i had a great time todae w buddy n bf..

2009-06-16T22:57:00.001+08:00

thanks to mar once again..
for changing my blogskin..
dis time rd it will stay long..
1, its bcos elmo is my fav..
2, cos i can view my elmo wenever i view my blog..
haha..
lame kn?
so mar askd me to gv her a pic using photobucket..
nd to sign up everyting..
rupenye its easy to use..
haha..
so i edited adq pic dat i post above..
nice?
haha..

parents coming hm tmrw..
i miss dem much..

2009-06-15T22:36:00.002+08:00

sent to parents off at teck whye ydae..
for their trip to desaru w e org2 belajar..
abah is e organiser for dis time rd..
while waiting for ust to come back frm akad nikah..
i was being appointed s a secretary to dad..
wrote dwn all e particulars s well s e car plate no..
penat tau tulis all those cos ders 4 papers in total..
n i nd to write it dwn within a short period of time..
haha..
after e convoy of 19 cars left..
abg faridz sent me hm..
straight back hm, make dadih for wak mik..
she was back frm umrah ydae nght..
while in e airport waiting 4 e appearance of wak mik..
i met hakim w cikgu sunita..
baru alek bangkok..
wah..
best nye..
ppl go for hol, n im stuck in spore..
cnt even go to msia due to e virus tingy..
sad kan?
haha..

todae went to a new ward..
so having orientation frm 0800-1600hrs..
went to wrk w public transport s dad n mom went to desaru ydae..
tmrw im in e am shift..
so yg jadi mangsa to send me tmrw, will b my sis..
haha..
gd eh ade co driver in e family..
haha..

2009-06-12T17:29:00.002+08:00

2 more wks b4 attachment ends..
n dat 1 wk hol, i still nd to do replacement..
haiz..
hol seems like ders no hol..
but poor buddy of mine, she hv no hol at all..
all e way doing replacement..
n of course, sats burn due to e replacement s well..

life was been ok..
js dat some tings nd to b settle asap..
im js nt sure if e wrds dat came out frm his mouth..
will it b a reality?
if it is, m i prepare for all those?
i dnt tink i m..
i dnt feel safe wenenver im otw hm..
but luckily ders always my colleague hu tmn me till e bustp..
she noes wats hapening nw..

doakn 4 my safety k ppl..

2009-06-08T23:51:00.000+08:00

dis was done after wrk js nw..
was in e afternoon shift..
haha..
my fren of mine play with my hair..
commented me to cut my fringe..
haha..
wait long2 k..
amcm?
which 1 is e nicest?
haha..

2009-06-07T22:35:00.002+08:00

todae attended my 2nd cous wedding..
n guess hw old is he?
hes 21..
n e bride is younger den him by 3 yrs..
count urself hw old is she..
me n sharill (20) was talking abt dis matter..
e both of us hv e same thinking..
will get married in the late 20s..
haha..
mak s usual rewang n help out wak jannah..
me n sis went dwn to e void deck to meet my other relatives..
kecoh bawah blk, with all e infants..
haha..
jabar ekhsan is so chubby!!
mat salleh celop!!
haha..

den kak decided to go jurong point since shes bored..
get permission frm parents n off we go..
sharill tagged along with us..
kecoh seh, even though its onli e 3 of us..
kak craving for mcd so we went der..
sharill cnt stop commenting e way kak ate her mcspicy..
haha..
dats e reason y i dnt wan to eat burger though i crave for this n dat..
i ate fries n mcflurry..
haha..

went to lee hwa shop to get free polish for kak engagement ring..
was waiting for adik to arrive der frm his tuition place..
mentang2 free, hari2 leh polish..
haha..
i suggested dat to sis..
haha..

guess wat??
i was being appointed to b e official photographer for hafia's engagement dae..
2nd time being appointed..
takot dok..
takot tk lawa n doesnt satisfy e customer need..
hmm..
wish me all e best k..

attachment so far seems to b ok..
sats burnt due to attachment replacement..
gosh!!
if u wanna bring me out, do bring me out after 3pm k..
hehe..

2009-05-20T23:36:00.003+08:00

started my attachment dis wk oredi..
i can sae dat dis wk is a surviving wk 4 me cos abah wldnt b sending..
cos usuali abah sent me to wrk s his wrking place is nearby..
attachd to imh dis wk..
seram sejok dibuatnye for e 1st time..
e feeling of excitement n scary was der..
but after a while i have adapt e environment..
n noe some of their names..
its so different compare to e general ward..
if u wanna noe more abt e environment, feel free to hv a visit der k?
hehe..

so todae, i hv made up my decision..
btwn oncology n psychiatric..
i took psychiatric..
but its nt cnfrm yet if i get dat elective..
cos mostly of my attachment frens took dat elective too..
hopefuli i will get it..
doakn k?

2009-05-06T00:20:00.002+08:00

received msg frm marni dis morning..

' there will b no more attachment for 3 wks. 25 may u nd to come back to sch for lesson. sim training cancelled too. check temp everydae 9am and 3pm..'

gosh..
im having my hol nw..
my attachment js startd,nt even a mth..
n im nw having my hols once again..
so dis 3 wks im gaining more n more wt..
haha..
supposedly, my attachment will end in mid june..
n sch reopens early july..
but since dis tingy happens, im gonna attend sch..
wen everyone is having their nice hols..
im nt prepare yet to go back to sch..
skills hv nt yet completed..
most probably, our current attachment will bring forward to our nxt term hol..
means my hol nw is being switchd w e attachment..
rght?
oh no..
im bringing tabbner back to sch..
having phase test n more subjects..
but im gonna miss a lot of classes in e mth of june..
cos student seminar will b officially having it at dat mth of time..
gosh..
means i hv panda eyes, or much more worse den panda eyes..
student seminar 1 tingy, sch assignments another tingy..
oh ya..
n e waking up time, e travel time..
im totali nt prepare to go back to sch..
im still having e mood of attachment..
i miss my frens, my partner in crime..
miss all e tings dat happen or gonna happen during attachment period..
sob,sob,sob..

2009-05-03T19:49:00.003+08:00

hello ppl..
im stuck with dis swine flu tingy..
due to dat, im on 1 wk leave..
haha..
its free for nw, but nt later..
cos i nd to pay back..
so hu wanna ask me out?
but mus let me noe in advance k..
haha..

but luckily my student seminar keep myself packed..
so it covers my boring time at hm..
hehe..

todae i went for abg man's n kak ida's wedding..
went to his nikah oso las thurs..
being e penghadang at kak ida's place..
me n nisa reached e place cun2..
e groom pon smpi..
dari jao abg man gv dat funny face to us..
haha..
ckp je pengantin, tp tk..
haha..
n dpt tau, kak ida's is related to me..
wat a small world eh..
pics below r taken during e nikah time..
e sanding im waiting 4 nisa to upload it in facebook..
nisa, im waiting..

2009-04-16T21:13:00.002+08:00

todae is a&e dae..
s well s tmrw..
while waiting for cikgu to arrive, e gals perot da kecot..
ade yg nk gi toilet 4 making big business la..
small one la..
haha..
so funny, u shld c us..
was being orientated by sister..
sister askd here n der..
well, my mind was in blank wen she askd questions..
nt onli me, e 2 gals too..
syukri didnt came to wrk todae..
ntah, wat happen..
e 1st few hrs after being assigned by sister, i was in e blank..
lucky my sn who i followd todae, was chill..
shes a 'new born baby' in e a&e too..
adapting e environment well..
ders dis part i hate e most..
gosh!!
i cnt stand e surrounding..
it makes me nausea wenever i took his parameters..
kesian eqa, she nd to do more den me w dat patient..
n e 1st time, i went for break later den planned..
i went at 1pm..
by e time i wanna eat, my perot da msk angin..
in e a&e, i didnt even think of gg to e toilet or drink..
compared to e ward surrounding..
mcm ni, kalau keje kat a&e, leh kurus seh..
haha..

went to sch after dat for student seminar..
saw e apr intakes..
holding on to their fresh baby, tabbner..
haha..
still new, still white..
haha..
wait u all kena mdm tan den u all noe..
'ur book is cleaner den ur face..'
haha..
still remember dat phrase..

having slight fever n bad dry cough..
addition of my migraine..
wish it will b gone..
weekends r burnt..
sat for attachment n sun for student seminar..
wers e time for me to sleep?
dis whole wkk im in e am shift..
nxt wk 3 pm shift, n 2 am shift..
no sat - so im gg to sleep till afternoon..
haha..
i wished..

2009-04-13T21:35:00.003+08:00

its so fast dat my hols had end..
attachment starts todae..
n was being posted to ward 57 for dis 2 wks..
within dis 2 wks, i will b gg to e a&e dept for 2 daes..
coincidentally, e future dad in law of sis, is in e same ward as me..
haha..
so must kwai2, cannot talk loud2..
haha..
after dis 2 wks, will b gg to mother n child, ward 48..
followed by IMH!!
haha..
silap2 nanti aku yg jadi patient..
haha..
dnt forget to visit me if im e patient k..
term starts n more replacement nd to b replace on sats..
thanks to e student seminar..
dis saturday i will b having my ever 1st replacement over 3 terms of attachment..
haiz..
n its in e am..
kesian abahku menjadi sasaran hanta aku gi keje..
thx abah..

b4 attachment starts, i followd e nurses to e nght safari..
jakon semacam cos it was my 1st time being der..
was super excited n seram..
haha..
we did watched e animal nght show..
while waiting, e animals dat was near our sits making dis spooky sound..
bulu roma naek dok..
seram seh..
da la tkde lampu..
haha..
den to our surprise, we have an amazing race..
in e dark..
haha..
so we walked in e dark, total darkness..
with onli fuel fire was on at certain places..
my team won e 2nd place though we reached e ending point 1st..
overall, e experience, it was super HOT..
no wind, n its coverd w tress here n der..
luckily i can c e animals..
haha..

more n more meetings coming up..
youths, student seminar n mthly meeting..
waduh..
i can divide myself into pieces..

n i cnt continue my photography..
thx to bro hu left e shutter button..
giving souvenier at hong kong..
nw it nd to b send 4 service n cost $110 n takes a wk to do it..
so wen can i get it back,mr?

2009-03-31T01:57:00.002+08:00

1. b a gd missy in e future
2. owe a dslr camera
3. owe a lappie, no more a desktop (since both siblings hv own lappie;current cpu gone case)
4. can i go aust w syafiq n azmi end of dis yr? but hu can sponsor me air ticket? treat it s my bdae gift, can?
5. get a new hp asap cos current hp is waiting to b throw from e highest level

so many tings i wan..
but i kp reminding to myself dat it takes time..
step by step..
s hw a little boy n gal having their staged of walking..

2009-03-23T21:39:00.002+08:00

20 march 2009..
suppose to hv my las dae of attachment on dat dae..
but den it will b replaced on sat due to student seminar..
i had sandcastle building at ecp..
22yrs in my life, nvr had i built a sandcastle b4..
haha..
reali..
its kinda tough building sandcastle..
tot it was simple..
nd to apply 'apie' 4 it..
haha..
1st few mins, e grp members didnt hv any ideas wat to do, hw to built up e sandcastle..
turn left n rght, other grps hv built up high..
our sands r still dry s hw we came..
haha..
so me n fazli gv some ideas..
n wen we start, all members shoot here n der..
haha..
its kinda fun..
w e sun so hot, we managed to finishd up e sandcastle js in time..
we named our sandcastle 'summer palace'..
haha..

e nght itself, had my nght cycling..
met nisa at sembawang ctrl stn n abg man fetched us der..
we were late, reached nearly ard 9pm..
haha..
dpt baju besar giler la seh..
so ders no point of dem asking 4 our t shirt sizes..
haha..
wen i came, der were having their wrkshp..
familiar faces were der..
had attend e 1st casualty, dis mamat jato frm moto n had a minor cuts..
abg apiz came together w abg a'an..
we flaged off ard mdnght, nt s planned..
going to e 1st pit stop, its so dificult due to e high up hills..
luckily naufal was der n askd me wen to change gear etc..
we targetted to finish our nght cycling at ard 0600hrs..
but hey, we cycled FAST!
we reached at e ending point at 0330hrs..
i planned to go hm..
but cant cos e prog hvnt yet finish..
so reached hm at ard 0530hrs..
ade la reason yg tertentu yg tk dpt dielakkan..
askd abg apiz to send me hm..

21 march 2009..
met sean at amk mrt to go 4 ijah wedding..
supposed to meet him at ard 1630hrs..
but was a bit late due to heavy rain..
n nvr in e meet up, he was punctual..
well done sean!
so we travelled to tamp..
n wen we took e bus, we overshoot our stop..
so we walked to search 4 e blk.. reached der ard 1830hrs..
saw wati, masihta, hafia, aini..
gosh..
dey changed la..
met cik bibah at e jempotan..
haha..
n even met dis buddy of mine, marni, at e jempotan too..
haha..
small world eh..
n i was given e name 'kueh pau' by e mom..
we left ard 1900hrs to meet tj at yshn..

after for so long, we finally met up again..
i miss dem soo much la..
dnt even recall wen was e las time we had an outing..
is it e las yr it fair?
long eh..
tj drives..
haha..
so fetched e sis at kfc chong pang n drove to seletar dam..
we had camwhore..
but mostly r sean n tj faces cos i captured their pics..
i didnt brought mine cos e shutter button was being souvenierd at hk - thx 2 adq..
after dat, sean n tj sis complaint of hunger..
so we went to yshn to had dinner..
so much topic to talkd abt..
esp wen it comes to tj part..
nxt gathering will b on e 3rd apr..
jgn tk jadi eh..

22 march 2009..
accompany sis n mak, together w daddy n mummy to expo..
sis finali bokoed her pelamin (frm istana) n bedrm deco (frm decorama)..
while dey do all dat, i went to hv a walk..
i managed to get a linen dress, using mak's money..
hehe..
i like it due to e design n its frm indo..
may will go expo again to go 4 e wedding tingy..
bz eh?
haha..

2009-03-16T20:22:00.002+08:00

todae starts my attachment..
but had my sims training todae..
coverd 4 topics - hyperglycaemia, wound care, pre op n gastric lavage..
joind 3 grps together - cgh grp 3, nuh grp 1 n 3..
had fun w all these ppl..
esp wen ders a joker in e class - mr firdaus..
hes so blur sotong..
but w/o him, our class will b dead silence..
thx fir..

dis fri seems to b a tight schedule for me..
since ders no attachment (which nd to do replacement on sat)..
i nd to attend a team building by student seminar..
either at changi village or east coast park..
dat same nght, im having nght cycling..
waduh..

talking abt ecp, i attended e youth bbq pit..
yoza fetchd me frm hm since hes driving..
all e way to ecp..
reachd, saw kak wan jaga-ing e pit all by herself..
e boys went to get water..
e time shows 1530hrs, n yet no signs of dem to start e fire..
wen i instructed dem, baru nk jln..
n im e one hu masak e food..
e rest tukang mkn..
haha..
e food seems nt 2 b enuf 4 e dae..
no plan b 4 wet weather..
its k..
dis is their 1st prog..
dono wats abg azman comment abt dis..
left e place ard 6pm, scared dad pot pet since mon nt in spore..
by e time i left, rain starts to pour..
phew..
lucikly..

n thx 2 azmi n marni..
im stuck w dis song..
wonder girls - nobody..
'i want nobody nobody but you..'

2009-03-13T22:38:00.001+08:00

2009-02-11T20:56:00.002+08:00

due to besties request n my fren..
i hv deleted e las portn of my las entry..
but no matter wat, i wldnt b keeping quiet abt dis matter..

todae was kinda ok 4 me..
had theory lessons instead of prac 4 3 hrs..
haha..
wen she starts to open e mouth, i started to yawn..
haha..
n e simplest way to fight for it, was to stand up till e sleepy mode is gone..
n dis fren of mine..
cried wen she saw me disappear in front of her..
padahal i was standing at e back of e class so dat i wldnt block e others..
dis fren of mine..
she told me dat she miss me much..
tu la, buat prangai lagi..
haha..
tk baek seh kwn ni satu..

i suppose to b studying rght nw..
pca class test paper is nxt mon..
n i hvnt yet flip a single nt abt dat..
i always do revision on my bio science..
talking abt bio science, alhamdulillah..
i passed my class test 1..
though its nt xpected..
but still i nd to attend 4 remedial class on 14 n 21 feb..
waduh..
sat burn w dis..

2009-02-10T21:03:00.007+08:00

las sun..
was an open table 4 us..
azmi blanje dok..
haha..
met all of dem at 1330hrs at city hall ctrl stn as azmi oredi book place for 14 ppl at swensens at suntec city..
since ders no place at orchard..
so we wen, met up w mazni n firman der as firman rode der..
its kinda kecoh cos ders little ones follewd e big sis n aunt..
hehe..
so kinda of family gathering for dem, cum frens outing..
after mkn, me n azmi sabo-ed mazni by giving 20 small candles instead of 2 big candles..
haha..
muka member paiseh seh..
we sang e bdae song s loud s we could..
semua tgk seh kat dlm swensen tu..
haha..
mazni cnt continue to cut e cake cos its hard like a stone..
haha..
so e staff cut 4 us e cake..
nice..
azmi spent $220 for swensens..
after mkn, we went to esplandae 4 a walk..
due to e hot weather, we decided to patah balek to marina square to enjoy e air con..
ppl complaint of thirst..
n der we went, to starbucks..
haha..
sape baya?
azmi skali lagi..
nk dikatekn e whole dae i didnt even kluarkn any money..
enjoy my dae though i didnt stay up w dem dat long..
relieved stress after wat had happend e dae b4..

mon, i kinda hv an open session w wani..
to let her noe wats her attitude, since she askd dat frm me..
at e same time, ayie was on e fon..
ayie was der to ask me to b strong..
haha..
mcm klaka gitu..
ayie even askd me to askd her y she msgd me like dat las sat..
w such a heavy heart, i askd her..
n u noe wats her reply?
she said..

'oh.. wat i meant was, nthg happens to me after e phase test.. i was ok after dat.. i was wondering y ppl was so stressed up after e phase test, esp wen dey got an invigilator like phyllis tan..'

i told her dat i was kinda of sad..
shockd wen she msgd me dat way..
n felt like crying, no matter wer i was at dat time of moment..
n she simply apologise to me..
n dats it?
gosh..
she sae she dnt mean to do it la..
oh my..
takot nanti tego dia, kecik hati lak..
hmm..

tmrw i b receiving my bio paper..
wonder hw my result is..

im getting new born niece n nephew soon..
one due on valentines dae n another, 5 daes later..
haiz..
makin byk anak sdare aku ni..
tkpe2..
bibik azi will always love u all..
muackz..

2009-02-08T21:13:00.002+08:00

ydae had my phase test..
n wat i can sae?
i did badly 4 it..
wen i saw her face, my mind was blank..
e nervousness was extreme to e max..
e steps was all jumble up..
i even forgotten to mention e complications of putting e iv cannula..
i dnt even noe if i pass or fail 4 it..
i cried terribly in front of e classmates..
e scenario happend in e rm, was still playing in my mind..
she kept prompting me questions..
she wanna me to do her style..
i practice e way dat im comfortable w..
n she xpected me to change her own style in a sudden?
hw can i do dat?

after wat happend in e am, i get changed to go to e mosque..
to do some paper wrk for e annual nght cycling..
but b4 dat i went to e airport to meet up w shah to gv his bag..
i was totali dwn..
no mood to do aniting..
while was waiting, kak amiju msgd me dat i dnt nd to come dwn to e mosque cos shes nt in..
wah liao..
didnt even noticed me earlier..
so i went hm straight..
while i was in e bus, wani msgd me..

'i oso got phyllis.. haha..
im having fun w her.. haha..'

wat is she trying to tell me?
she noes dat i was super duper sad after wat happend after e phase test..
she was der to console me, asking me nt to cry..
n y out of sudden she msgd me all dat?
to tell me dat, she makes me feel better?
WTF!!
is dis wat u calld 'twinnie'?
twinnie ur head!!

my mood is still upside dwn even though i hv reachd hm..
mom askd me to go jb, i didnt wan to go..
sis askd me to go nrthpt, i rejectd..
azmi askd me to find bdae present, i declined..
nk dikatekn, ydae was e worst mood ever..
frens kp asking me if im ok..
thx frens 4 being der..

2009-01-27T17:11:00.002+08:00

gong xi fa cai..
hang bao na lai..
to all my chinese frens, hapi ox yr..

weekends n 2 daes of hols been a tired minded 4 me..
haha..
been revising my bio, which didnt even go inside my head..
i was js concentrating on e micturation..
n functions of kidneys..
e others i hv nt yet covered..
e long listed table i hv nt yet memorized..
wa piang..
nt onli dat, i hv grp projects to submit in e mth of feb..
dis excludes student seminar project..
a major project i shld sae cos its a combination w all e ite colleges in spore..
n a combine w e hongkers in e middle of e yr..
gosh..
im trying to adapt w e 'new' condition..
time table was so tight..
everydae ends at 5pm except tues, 6pm..
sats occupied w projects..
so ppl, if u wanna meet me, do tell me in advance..
hehe..

annual nght cycling is coming..
abg azman hv choosen me to b e overall ic 4 an nur..
n dis thurs will b e 1st meeting at an nur..
hopefulli i can make it on time..

ydae i had picnic w maternal families..
i met salihin s well s nurul..
salihin actuali cycled all e way frm siloso beach to tanjong beach..
haha..
sweet kn?
haha..
we talked onli 4 a while..
i did enjoyed myself though..
did played rounders n touched rugby..
e hard texture of e sand is giving me a hard time of running..
i even had a little walk w e small one..
i even witnessed e eclipse, together w my family..
masya'allah..
kuasa tuhan..
dats e 1st time i witnessed such..
i tried to take pics of it, but i didnt c it..
u can actuali c it clearly w ur shades on..
hopefuli i can witnessed it again..

tmrw sch starts n thurs is oredi my bio test..
hopefuli i will pass cos i dnt wanna go 4 remedial on every sat..
doakan ye..

2009-01-10T02:00:00.002+08:00

salam..
sori 4 nt updating my blog 4 a long time..
sch reopens oredi n i didnt hv e time 2 do e daily routine..
time table packed 4 dis term..
everydae sch starts at 0800hrs..
everydae sch ends at 1700hrs..
except 4 tues dat ends at 1800hrs..
so i will b free to do my checking of emails on fri..
or wen i hv e free time in e middle..
apart frm dat, i will b having class test starting frm nxt wk..
baru start skola da de class test..
b having insulin injection..
haiz..
perah otak la seh..
class test nye laen, project nye laen..
2 projects to settle n due on feb..
gosh..
pening la seh..
nt onli dat, i b having my student seminar s well..
wah piang..
kalahkn businesswoman kn?
haha..
tkpe2..
if my seniors can do it, so can i..
ciayo!!
haha..

2008-12-28T22:10:00.003+08:00

update time!!

261208..
i was being called to do real wrk under mrs tang..
to call e new intakes abt their shortlisted of interview on mon..
called till lunch time..
while i was taking some break..
a private no called me..
i tot its my fren..
so i picked up e call..

me:hello?
pte no:*background* hapi bdae
me:hello?
pte no:*background* hapi bdae
me:hello?
pte no:*background* hapi bdae
me:hello?
pte no:*a lady's voice* hapi bdae girlfren.. FIZA O disini.. saya dpt kiriman dr idah, suroh saya call awak, ckp hapi bdae drpd julaiha, nisa, idah n abg azman.. sori dia tk dpt hadir celebratn smlm.. idah kata lagi dia akan plan utk e nxt celebration..

n e ting continues..
hanya tuhan saje yg tau wats was my reaction at dat time of moment..
blushed giler la seh..
den few mins idah msgd me..
i snd blur..
indeed i am..
haha..
after wrk, wen to meet shah..
gv me a bdae present..
haha..
its a crumpler bag..
cool k..
marni, if u r reading dis..
i hv a crumpler bag..
hehe..

281208..
hapi dae to me..
officially 21 oredi..
legal to do aniting n everyting..
haha..
celebrated my bdae kat tmpt rewang..
everyting wen smooth till e clock strikes 5pm..
bik zida was giving away cupcakes..
so i took 1 to eat..
mummy gv me a cupcake s a bdae rpesent..
tup tup..
dis to boys, mus n adq..
attacked me frm side..
n giving me a free facial cream frm e cupcake..
imagine, e whole cupcake was being smashed on my face..
i js wanna enjoy eating e cupcake..
tudong, baju n esp face was coverd w cream..
mak scold dem after dat..
protect seh..
thx mak, love u..
tot dats e end of e sabo..
so i washed my face..
its so damn oily la..
abg noh was assigned to b e dj on dat dae..
so tutop kedai lmbt, he go n annouce to e whole area..
dat todae is my bdae..
so cake frm swensen was der..
n abg mahathir was der too to celebrate..
so sang bdae songs..
all kind of version-fast, slow n normal..
while eating e cake..
tup tup another sabo-ed happend..
it startd frm e back of me..
i dnt even noe hu it was..
smashed e serbok cuci pinggan on my head..
followed by water n cream cake..
haha..
can u imagine dat?
was drenched wet..
e gd ting was, i didnt bring xtra clothings..
n e weather was cold la seh..
luckily mummy bought a spare..
bdae on a sun n its rewang time..
bad time..
haha..
click here -> abg mahathir's facebook for e bdae sabo..

to all e ppl hu wished me via sms, call n face to face..
thank u ppl..
to all my maternal family, thx 4 e sabo-ed..
to abg mahathir, thx 4 joining in e celebration..
I LOVE YOU LOTS..

2008-12-25T22:15:00.002+08:00

merry christmas ppl!!

apart frm celebrating xmas at hm..
i went out w e besties instead..
dey didnt even went w me, n all alone to orchard..
waited 4 dem till 3.30pm..
yet, no appearance..
den saw dis big hapi bdae balloon flowing towards me..
n saw nisa holding e balloon w za holding a gigantic 'postcard'..
n dey bullied me by asking me to carry dat both tings all e way to cash box..
which is located beside forum..
we sand n sang for 3 hrs..
after dat we went to lucky plaza to meet up w opit n hv dinner..
sadly, abg azman n idah cnt make it due to family matters..
after mkn our ayam bakar n ikan lele bakar..
we proceed to e corridor of lucky plaza to blow candles..
a v short bdae song n a puff to blow away e flames..
even za didnt managed to capture it..
hehe..
in e end i nd to carry back hm e gigantic bdae balloon, gigantic 'postcard', bdae present n bdae cake..
all by myself..

thx 4 e ppl hu turned up to celebrate it..
fareez, hisham, sharul, azri n my beloved besties..
za,ju n nisa..

thx 4 e wonderful surprise bdae celebration..
a meaningful n memorable cleberation..
i love u gals..
muah..

2008-12-18T22:22:00.003+08:00

hi ppl..
sori 4 nt being able to update e blog for a v long time..
well..
its been a wk dat im resting at hm..
n 2 more wks to go b4 sch reopens..
which im nt looking forward for dat..
cos got to found out frm azmi, dat we gonna hv combine lecture on e 1st dae of sch..
aiyoyo!!
n its bio science!!
frm her!!

on e 13 dec 08..
attended 2 celebrations..
kak ida's wedding s well s ju's bdae which held at her hm..
pics below..

more, view at http://nuraziah.multiply.com

on e 17 dec 08..
i hv received my most expensive bdae present frm e bakalnye..
nt my bakal but sis bakal..
hehe..
its white, pure white..
macheh eh abg mathir..
hehe..

20-23 dec im leaving to melacca (again) for hol..
w e maternal families..
nt sure hw many cars will b gg..
so ppl..
do take care ya..

2008-11-28T23:03:00.002+08:00

las 2 daes..
smthg bad hapend to me..
n it hapend to me early in e am,even b4 i went out frm hse 4 wrk..
it startd at 0600hrs..
1st vomiting, n continuously soon after i reachd wrk..
e toilet was being my 2nd 'wrking place' on dat am..
i didnt help my colleagues to do e normal routines..
i kept going in n out of e toilet..
became more weaker s time passes by..
my eyes was heating up wenever i shut it..
i wanna go hm,but i didnt want to replace it on sat..
so i carry on till e time ends..
alhamdulillah..
aunt told me dat i didnt ate my meal well..
n got gastric..
hmm..
aku eh tk mkn betol?
biar btol?

more probs is adding in me esp..
i felt like im e middle prsn btwn e both of u..
if u tink u were e onli 1 hu been questions by aunt n cous..
u r wrong!
super duper wrong!
aunt calld me wen im wrking..
she nvr calld me b4 at those time, except if mom w me..
she askd me y n wat hapend..
m i suppose to keep quiet?
do u tink its easy for me to ans their questions?
im so sick sometimes too..
do u noe dat?
im e type of prsn hu is so difficult to let tings out in me..
hw m i suppose to do dat?
i dnt even noe wer n hw to start..
if i wanna talk tings out w u, im scared dat u will b disspointd in me..
i tink abt ur feelings 1st rather den i tink abt myself..
do u tink im being selfish in dis matter?

2008-11-24T18:06:00.003+08:00

hapi bdae mak yg ke ehem2..
smoga dipanjangkn umur dan dimurahkan rezeki..
ydae was her big dae..
so w an unplanned plan, we went to eat at popeyes..
at t3..
it was like finally dat i ate at popeyes..
wat i love e most was e FRIES..
agree?
hehe..

smthg hapend at wrk todae..
4 ppl was assigned in 1 cubicle todae..
so deywent seperate ways to help e others..
so me n ummirah stayd in e cubicle..
normal routine in e am..
den it hapend after e break..
1 of e patient had a fast pulse..
dat was like 170-180 bpm..
can u imagine dat?
it was being notified by e daughter..
i told e staff nurse abt it..
checkd bp, it was freaking low..
u can get it at 75/57..
n its nt a joke k..
me n ummirah was like rushing here n der..
patient was needed to send to m.i.c.u..
i cnt help up in preparing e transferring s e bleed didnt stop..
so i actuali went dwn w my hand pressing against e off plugged area..
n being squeezed e lift door etc..
e doc didnt hv e license to push e bed..
haha..
n we nearly hit a deceased trolley near e counter..
hehe..

2008-11-11T17:51:00.002+08:00

dear sis,

alhamdulillah, im glad to find out dat u hv someone in life, apart frm the HIM n family members. even my besties noe abt him cos both stayed at e same blk n e dad is e bilal in e mosque. n e youngest sibling is my senior, the handsome drummer. haha. wat a small world eh?

but sometimes, or usuali, it gets me irritated w ur behaviour. js dnt understand abt it. ders dis part, u were so lazy to do aniting, everyting dats in front of u. wen u got a call, u were awake immediately, n get to dress to meet him up. wats e pt of u bringing ur wrk back hm den? u told parents dat u hv lots of tings to settle, but in e end, u r lazying on e bed, talking on e fon.

didnt get to talk w him dat much at wrk place? wanna talk w him 24/7 ke? remember wat u told me b4 dis? i noe, if i askd u again, u will denied it, dnt u? u scold me cos im irritating. yes, indeed i m. i noe my character. but den, do u hv any other place to talk other den e rm? im asleep at dat time of moment n u were talking. i did e same too, i admit. but i did go off or even put dwn e fon. hw abt u?

ders dis part u r defending him so much, which i noe its nt even true. an unknown no calld me wen i hv a hari raya outing w frens. wat do u xpect me to do? to gv a sweet tone of voice to an unknown no? for sure, u said dat im so being frenly. i was at my normal tone. i dnt even noe wat he told u. n u told me dat sentence is frm u. gosh!

i dnt even noe wat to sae to u, sis. hope wat u r doing rght nw, will benefit u in e future. i cnt sae aniting oredi. so if aniting dat is related to him, go straight to parents n talk to dem. dnt make me e middle prsn to pass e msg to dem. u r big enough to do it.

i love u sis.

ur sis,
azi

2008-10-18T19:17:00.003+08:00

2 tings dats happening to me currently..

1. im starting to read eng books!!

gosh..
wat hapen to my malay novels?
i used to HATE eng books, n kp buying my malay novels wen i hv e chance 2 buy it..
or even askd my cous to buy 4 me..
n nw, ever since i bought dis buy-1-get-1-free book of sophie kinsella..
i kp myself reading eng book nw..
currently im reading book frm jane green..
n i js bought another boko frm sophie kinsella..
e continuous frm e book dat i read..
n im nt updating my malay novels..
dats v sad seh..
can i hv my new novels soon?

2. im craving 4 chocs lately

i dnt even noe y im craving 4 chocs lately..
js bought mars frm e ntuc..
gosh..
wats hapenning to me?

tmrw jln raya w e youths..
n tmrw e families gg to jb 2 visit my grandma..
i miss my grandma la..
2 replace my place..
i actuali develop pic of me n her..
during raya las yr..
i miss her..
lots..

2008-10-14T19:25:00.002+08:00

hello ppl!!
im here..
attachment hv startd ydae..
i was sent to renal ward, ward 55..
dis wk was still under get-to-noe-e-ward better..
we even hv deputy nurse manager in e ward..
wow..
hehe..
e patients r all e grandmas n grandpas..

hv dis patient in my cubicle..
we named her 'call bell queen'..
1st dae of attachment je da label her dat..
she holds e call bell 24 hrs..
press e call bell wenever she feels like doing it..
ie wen she wakes up frm nap..
n wat she askd 4?
'missy ah.. batu.. batu..'
guess wats e batu means?
ice cubes..
can sae shes e queen of ice cubes la..
all e meals she dnt wana eat..
n all she eat was ICE CUBES..
n her fav word if she cnt get e ice cubes..
'aiyo.. aiyo.. aiyo..'
n she complains dat she gonna die soon..
n press again e call bell..
to kp e noise pollution dwn, we gv her e ice cubes..
she got it..
n she will kp quiet n goes to sleep..
n e moments she wakes up, call bell again..
n e process kps rotating..

todae was consider e bad luck dae..
was waiting 4 e train at jurong platform..
was w e rest of e colleagues after i met a fren..
den i felt ders a drop on my head..
thought its a rain drop since it was raining at dat time of moment..
so i went to touchd it..
yucks!!
it was slimy, greenish n hot..
haha..
its e bird shit la dey..
i was like cursing e bird soon after i got it..
lucky i was w e rest..
gosh..
=(

2008-10-06T23:46:00.004+08:00

selamat hari raya aidilfitri..
maaf zahir dan batin..
salah dan silap ampun ya!

can i sae dat raya dis yr was SUPERB?
my collection still running,s usual..
dis is e gd ting wen ppl, esp ur relatives noe dat u r schooling..
haha..
gd rght?
raya dis yr mcm tk meriah mcm dulu..
gaknye kite2 ni semua da besar panjang kot?
haha..
tp wen it comes to weekends, mak oi..
leh patah tulang seh..
dapo je la kejenye..
can sae being e part time maid 4 both weekends..
haha..
but luckily e las weekend, adik was being cooperative..
kak wasnt ard due to submission of sch project..
n b4 she went, she brought her guest hm..
haha..
tu pon dpt duit raya frm dia la sey..
gerek kape??

maternal sides hv been coverd,half of it..
paternal sides nt yet completed yet..
dis wkends, both, im nt available..
11 w sembawang sec, 12 w missy..
n 13 starts my attachment!!
gosh!!
19 w e youths..
so these 3 dates im nt available..
so ppl, sape nk dtg..
beep2 ya..
my no is _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _..
pegi la guess ya..

n for goodness sake??
wats rong w hotmail account?
i cnt open my mails..
i cnt delete my unnessary emails..
n my inbox is like wow!!
pls..
i nd a solution!!
nw!!

2008-09-27T00:19:00.002+08:00

mis identification..
dats wat u told me..
n i guess its correct..

but i cnt face u wen we gonna hv e face-to-face discussion..
abt dis matter..
hw can u, in e 1st place, hv e thought dat its ME?
m i e onli 1 hu is like dat, s wat u described abt e gal dat u saw?
its my name dat u mentiond to him..
can i confront my 'another mirror image' abt dis matter?
n to check if its her hu is in e rm?

2008-09-25T01:09:00.004+08:00

while i browsing through my pics in e comp..
i smiled to myself..
ppl hu hv made a great memories 4 me 2 kp it..
ppl hu made me smile, laugh, joy, etc..
without knowing dem, will i hv e chance to meet dem in prsn?
i miss dem so much, esp dis 'fren' of mine..
hu made a great impact in my life..

thx 4 being part of my life..
to u, esp..

2008-09-22T23:55:00.005+08:00

las sun..
me n e team (ehem!) had a community service at blk 3 marsiling..
hmm..
lets e pics saes it all..
can??

boss inspecting e workers work diligently.. =)

boss pon buat keje jugak eh..

2008-09-21T09:19:00.003+08:00

while waiting 4 e chairman of e youth to fetch me..
to go to ikea s well s to do community service..
let me hv e time to update my blog..
hehe..

ydae youth in charge was a success, alhamdulillah..
congrats ju..
though ders rushing here n der..
ask u smthg?
wats e pt of u coming dwn wen u wanna go hm a few mins b4 e major starts?
might s well u dnt nd to come rght?
ur belongings oso u didnt bring it hm..
haiz..
i hv no comments abt it..

dis r e sweet young ladies in e mmb..
i loike la e baju..
nice rght?
'sponsered' by e mosque..
macheh eh..
but too bad didnt get 2 capture abg azman in his malay baju kurong..
=)

2008-09-20T00:18:00.002+08:00

some tings had happend..
we suppose to hv a dry run s well s briefing 4 tmrw..
n to my surprised, 11 ppl turned up 4 e dry run..
n 10 ppl turnd up 4 e briefing..
smthg hapend during e iftar..
6 boys cabot halfway during e iftar..
dey did askd 4 permission to go out to smoke..
n tup tup dorang hilang la seh..
punya la bingit aku dibuatnye..
its suppose to b ju yg bingit..
tp mcm ne eh aku nk ckp..
buat keje sparo jln..
bdk2 muslimin pon da tau dat we will do e cleaning up..
wats e pt of dem coming dwn 4 e dry run if dey wanna cabot?
wat abg azman said its true la..
da de niat nk tolong tu, tolong je la kasi habis..
ni tk, sparo jln maen jln je..
nt even telling us aniting dat u wanna walk off..
smpikn abg azman kp asking me if im ok ke tk..

after e 'long briefing', we headed to blk 3..
nas, dan, fitri, me, ju, abg azman n hizam..
went to e hse dat needed to hv a mini makeover..
well, e hse didnt nd dat much of makeover, compared to e worst ppl..
i wanna go ikea!!

had e baju 4 e event tmrw..
i loike e pattern..
reali la seh..
hehe..
but den i dnt hv e mood to wear it tmrw..
e rght sleeve n e left sleeve, it made of diff material..
nk dikatekn 3/4 of e baju is haivng e same material except 4 e left sleeve..
haiz..
baru nk melawa..
hehe..
kak n mak said it doesnt look dat obvious..
hmm..
can i ask 4 an xchange?
=)

2008-09-19T01:44:00.003+08:00

exams r over..
n nw its hol time..
which oso means dat i b like kemas-ing my kandang aka rm 4 several daes..
s it will b divided into parts..

todae i had done 1st n 2nd part of e rm cleaning..
well kinda tired though s i was like going here n der even though its a short distance..
hehe..
clean up e dust behind e comp table s well s e boxes area..
tmrw will b e book shelves..
im gonna transfer all my novels to e top shelf..
cos im proud to owe dat 18-20 malay novels..
hehe..
but 2 books on rent so its incomplete..

during e kemas-ing part..
i found several tings dat bring dwn to memory lane..
my old past diary frm 2005 till nw, e tings dat was being given by e love 1s in e past..
till my accounting binding book!!
my accounting paper!!
gosh..
i miss those times though i hate dat course..
haha..
all e books dat is associated w accounting, i found it back..
n pics too wen i was a small kiddy..
took 1 of those pics dat i found..

my senyum lebar ever in my life..
dnt even noe wen was e las time dat i had hug frm dad..
raye je la nmpknye..
hmm..

2008-09-15T23:31:00.002+08:00

1. red rhino, fire engine n policemen came to hv a visit

las thurs, at 4.30pm it hapend out of sudden..
mak n me js came back frm chong pang..
n its time to cook 4 buka..
wen she wanna on e api, she heard e loud pop sound..
she calld me n check wats below e tmpt dapo..
n tada..
ders flames due to gas leaking..
i told mak, n mak pon da gabra giler..
mak calld abah, n abah askd to off e main gas supply..
mak did dat by opening all e cupboards kat luar..
she was confused n calld me to go outside..
meantime, abah askd to call 995 while hes otw back hm..
i calld..
n few mins time, e fire engine, red rhino n policemen came dwn..
all e neighbours were at e void deck watching e short drama..
smpikn tk fetch arissa, kesiankn mak..
shes alone at hm dat time of moment..
handling w all e mat bombas at hm..
e mat bombas smpikn minta kurma 4 buka-ing..

2. 2d1n camp

e camp was a successful one, alhamdulillah..
dr worries of nt having participants, to nos of participants frm e madrasah..
e progs dat hv been planned 4 las wks..
nisa, being a chief camp..
ju, being e games ic..
n me, being e food ic (haha!!)..
everything seems to b perfect..
follow e details..
participants was kinda cerewet i shld sae..
esp e gals..
gosh..
watever it is, congrats ppl!!

2008-09-04T13:14:00.002+08:00

im in sch rght nw..
hot news b4 i went to e nxt class..
u noe wat hapen?
u wanna noe?

IM TRAPPED IN E LIFT!!

yes..
u read it correctly..
me n frens, n other sch mates were trapped in e lift..
we were frm e forum, watchd performance..
e 'lobby' was packd w students..
so we waitd e e corner lift, waiting 4 our turn to 'board' e lift..
me n frens managed to go in e lift cos ders trollies of foods..
*perot pon tgh gendang sekuat2nya* =)
n e lift wen 2 e basement..
reachd to level 1, other sch mates pon masok la..
e classmates of e sch mates, r nt satisfied dat he managed to go in e lift..
he kickd once n e lift door opend..
wen e door wanna close, again, he kickd again..
n tup..
e lift jammed!!
dis is my 2nd time trapped in e lift..
so im trying, again, nt to b panic..
hehe..
but i was!!
i actuali askd all e ppl in e lift to contact whoever dey can contact..
few mins later, i realised hw stupid i was..
we cnt even get any receptn in e lift la..
none of dem even hv 1 bar stated in e hp..
gosh..
i was like non stop seh bace doa..
haha..
ya, u read it correctly..
my other frens was like cursing e prsn hu kickd e lift..
haha..
i managed to go out few mins later..
alhamdulillah..
ppl out der..
dnt laugh at me wen u c me k?

2008-08-30T01:29:00.002+08:00

hapi bdae to u..
hapi bdae to u..
hapi bdae to KHAIRUN NISA..
hapi bdae to u..

hapi 21st bdae..
wish u all e best..
tkmo stress2 k..
me n ju always here 4 u..

calld her to wish her hapi bdae..
conference la sey..
e teletubbies n e elmo..
haha..
ders nisa, yoza, ain n e bf on e line..
wow..
cool huh?
lets hv 10 ppl doing conferencing?
wanna try?
n ain's voice so snd like ju..
wens shes on e fon..
hehe..

hope u hv a memorable dae ever!!

2008-08-24T01:13:00.002+08:00

time checkd frm my hp: 0115hrs
noe wat e roslan's children is all doing nw?

elder sis - doing revision s well s assignments in e rm..
younger bro - sitting at e dining area doing his geography revision s he hv paper on tues..
but wat hapen to e middle child?
haha..
e middle child - hapily typing dwn e lastest entry in her blog, not knowing e meaning of doing REVISION wen she herself too, hv test on mon,though shes doing her e-tutor at e same time..
cool rght?
e siblings hv 'kamcheng ho' w each other to stay awake to do revision instead of tmrw..

hapi revision-ing siblings..!!

2008-08-23T00:28:00.004+08:00

ohk..
im using sis lappie to update my entry..
if nt jgn harap u will c my nxt entry dis fast..
hehe..

i hv started my pbl (prob based learning)..
its abt elderly..
so wat m i going to sae abt elderly huh?
i hv no more elderly runs in both paternal n maternal side..
can parents b in e category of 'elderly'?
i hv been given a scenario of dis family..
wen i read it,it seems like a story book to me..
i dnt even noe hw to start e pbl..
during e sch hrs js nw, we had our 1st pbl..
i was 'restrictd' by mazni nt of doing other ppl 'job' cos i was e 'leader'..
i helpd e 'resercher' n 'reporter' but she took it dat away frm my hands..
hehe..
tk pena2 de org suro aku tkmo buat keje..
kalau mcm ni hari2 kan best?
hehe..
so e pbl meeting was kinda 'lost'..
cos its e 1st time we r doing it..
but we r slowing adapting it..
e hand out will b on dis coming fri n der will b oso a presentation abt wat we hv done 4 our pbl in power point..
so do u tink it kinda time constraint 4 us to do all dis within a wk?
exams r coming n i hvnt yet start to do my revision..

during e las paper of e exam..
all e cohort nd to stay back to hv a 'meet up session' w our new clinical advisor..
n e hospital we r postd to..
imagine myself having an afternoon paper which ends at 5pm..
n nd to stay in sch till dawn..
wat time n wer shall all e muslim students will b breaking their fast?
in sch?
will e canteen still b open at dat time of moment?
hmm..
or nk bawak bekal dr rumah?
haha..

hw i wish i need not need to face a single alphabet appearing in front of me..
=x

2008-08-20T16:51:00.002+08:00

taadaa..
im back!!
haha..

tmrw marks my 1 mth of nt updating my bloggie..
pity e viewers didnt get to hv any updates abt me..
missing me is it?
hehe..
now let me update one by one..

sch life..
few more wks to exams..
it will b on e 9 n 10 of sept..
bln puase la seh..
n i cnt imagine myself fasting wen its sch time..
dnt even noe wat time to bgn 4 sahur, etc..
projects r stacking up more n more..
frm project management project to prob based learning..
research n more research dat my n my other grp members nd to do..
our project management project is coming to e end..
js waiting 4 e dae of our presentatn..
we had done abt heritage..
abt prob based learning, its abt elderly..
e scenario had not yet been given to us..

youth life..
since i startd to join in e mmb..
my life was like 80% being taken away..
attending functions, meetings, etc..
so my contract ends in 2010 instead of 2009..
e las event i had was e family youth carnival..
wat was being planned all dis while, doesnt even hapend..
except e gerai..
tu pon we nd to close dwn early den e scheduled time..
due to e 'crowdness'..
we didnt even hv e opportunity to hv our games..
e besties s well s abg is, esp, da getting ready 4 e game stns..
n few mins later, received and instructn to clear up all e games dat we hv prepared..
sedih kan?
e time dat e besties, abg azman n e rest spent e time collecting stuffs..
bought e necessary stuffs e nght b4..
in e end, dis is e result dat we received on dat dae..
me n nisa actuali went out during e v bad weather to buy e stuffs..
mcm tk kesian pulak eh dgn kita semua?
smpi hati..
kecik hati patik..

personal life..
kinda ok..
been coping n adapting life slowly..
though ders lots of tings in me which i cnt sae to e prsn itself..
js dat its kinda a big qn mark to me w e attitude dat u show to me..
in front of me..
e act dat u showd to dem..
n wanna noe all e stuffs dats happening ard u..
to e fren of mine,hope dis wldnt get ani serious..
cos if it hapen, i myself didnt noe wat to do nxt..

i received a 'present' on las mon..
a 'present' dat makes me in tears..
nt due to happiness..

2008-07-21T19:32:00.002+08:00

saturdae,19 july 2008
phase test..
i was kinda nervous e nght b4..
i even slept late to do my las min prac..
noe wat time i woke up on dat dae?
its 0450hrs..
haha..
u can sae dat im kanchiong..
im in e 8am slot..
left hm s per normal,s hw i usuali leave hm to sch everydae..
6.20am,e bus hvnt yet reachd..
i waited with patience..
it comes ard 6.30am..
msgd wani n azmi dat i js board e bus..
wanted to take a nap s i usuali do..
but i cnt do it..
e ride was slower den usual..
my heart beating fast each min passes..
all dat i mentiond above, doesnt matter to me..
cos i noe,est my time, i wldnt b late for my reporting time..
time checkd..
it was 0720hrs..
i was supposed to reach tamp interchange oredi..
but due to e lateness of e arrival of e bus n e slow drive..
n frm wer my location was..
i est my time dat i can reach in abt 5 mins more..
but den!
i was super duper rong!
e TIB1166 driver drives to e rong exit!!
wth..
in e bus i was super e nervous oredi..
n yet he exit e rong exit..
i had a tour ard pasir ris for a while..
in e long bus 969..
w my heart pounding fast..
i was super worid dat i will b late 4 my test..
n wen i alight e bus..
e driver didnt even hv e initiative to apologise or smthg..
i noe la dat im e onli prsn hus wearing sch uniform..
but pls la..
u look so blur wen u got e rong exit..
pls..
do hv efficient rest b4 u start ur wrk..
thx..

during e phase test..
wasnt ready 4 my turn..
wen i was waiting at e waiting area,nt even a min..
e teacher askd me to go in..
i was like OMG..
i doa dulu b4 i proceed in..
i startd w waever i rememberd..
n u noe wat?
i tumbled everyting up..
didnt take some requisites, didnt do dis n dat stuffs..
even e teacher realised..
but luckily i managed to cover e steps dat i missd out..
but im nt sure if i pass or nt..

i had mmb investiture in e pm..
i rushd back hm..
hvnt even decide wat to wear..
mak even askd me to try e outfir dat i wanna wear b4 its been cnfrmd by me..
reachd mosque ard 105pm..
n all e eyes in e auditorium lookd at me..
i was like e guest of honour..
hehe..
indeed i am..
e las prsn to reach..
at least i hv a reason k..
n dat time of moment,cik rahim was giving a speech..
went to e occ 4 e function..
wah..
face to face w him seh..
n askd us hw old r we..
we lookd young eh?
gd..
haha..

2008-07-16T20:33:00.005+08:00

c dat pic above..
its me n aliff..
wani askd me, 'eh is he ur bro?'
wahida askd me, 'eh he is ur cous?'
n i was like saying NO..
dey keep saying dat e both of us,de same wajah..
mcm adik bradik or related to me..
hehe..
a'ah..
kite sedare..
sedare islam..=)

me n classmates wen to tamp mall to find bdae present..
we even went to toy r us..
ders so many cute toys in der..
faham2 je la..
usia da melanjut..
tmpt2 mcm ni pon da jarang nk pegi..
hehe..
wen i saw e barbie dolls area..
it reminds me my time wen i was a kid..
im a freak barbie doll fan..
haha..
yes..
u r reading it correctly..
i keep all e dresses of barbie dolls..
n will change it every dae, comb their smooth hair..
haha..
k..
k..
i stop here..

den we went to charles n keith..
n went i told dem dat i hv dis high heel shoe..
dey were kinda surprised..
cos dey sae dat it didnt match w my characteristic..
u noe wat it is?
a sporty gal..
haha..
i hate running n den she can commentd me dat im a sporty gal..
haha..

dis sat phase test is making me so e nervous to e max..
wen its my turn doing e prac dis am..
i missd alot of impt pts..
darn..
wish me luck k..

'..ade elmo kat sini, nak choose barney pulak..'
dis sentence makes me laughd e entire nght..
haha..
e way he describd abt e couple, i laughd so loud..
haha..

btw e 9th cucu sedara is on e way..
oh my..
nenek muda seh aku..
haha..

2008-07-12T00:26:00.003+08:00

35 more daes - an nur youth family carnival
13 more daes - 'submission' of e project 4 catering
7 more daes - phase test I n II, investiture
.. n more meetings coming up due to plan of e family carnival..

i hv designd a 'logo' dat was being brainstormd by dad n me..

so which 1 is nicer?
let me noe..
i nd to complete it within a few daes..
wah piang..
so many tings nd to settle..
can i cut myself into pieces?

2008-07-10T22:40:00.002+08:00

salam..
thanks e credit to sean..
my blog skin da tuka..
lawa tk?
hehe..

updated news abt me..
since sch reopens..
bad luck had been der waiting for me..
esp in sch..
since e 1st dae of sch..
i was being blacklisted w my 'beloved' class advisor..
till nw, e 4th dae..
my name was being e 1st name to being calld..
n todae..
e 'beloved' calld my name loud n clear..
in front of e whole cohort in e lecture theatre..
mak oi..
e reason of her to call my name..
is js bcos she askd me to move dwn to e empty spaces..
of all ppl..
of all e classmates..
y mus b my name to b calld?
aiyo..

apart frm dat..
my time table kinda tight..
i dnt even noe if i can finishmy task within aug..
i hv mosque family carnival coming up..
help my uncle to do some sort of cards 4 his catering services..
aiyo..
n i nd to get it ready b4 25 july..
n i hv like hw mani more daes left..
HELP ME!!

2008-06-25T18:09:00.002+08:00

dis song was introduced to me ydae afternoon..
a touching video i should sae..
n its in my head oredi..
keep repeating e song over n over again..
esp e chorus part..

'aku hanya ingin kau tahu, besarnya cintaku,tingginya khayalku bersamamu'
'tuk lalui waktu yang tersisa kini, di setiap hariku, di sisa akhir nafas hidupku'

2008-06-15T01:15:00.002+08:00

140608
BORED..
im freaking bored..
was all hm alone at hm todae..
e whole dae..
since 7am..
i woke up at 6.30am to make bfast for abah b4 he leaves hm to help uncle in doing their catering services..
slept back n woke up to do the hse wrk, all of it..
after zohor, i went to cp to buy e stuffs dat mak told me..
managed to get it in a few mins n went hm..
on my way hm, bought some food 4 me to fill in my empty stomach..
kak azah calld n askd if im ok..
i actuali cried to hear both adq n kak voices..
n since den, i startd to cry n cry..
calld abah cos its oredi gg to b mdnght..
told me dat he will b hm after maghrib..
put dwn e fon w him, i cried again..
msgd him dat i wanna sleep, i cried again..
ya..
u can call me a cry baby..
mom, siblings nt in spore..
dad was out since am..
can u feel e loneliness in me?
oh my..
i miss dem lots..

2008-06-12T23:49:00.002+08:00

my apology 4 nt updating my blog 4 a long, long time..
i even received complains dat i hvnt yet to update my blog..
sori eh kak ju?
haha..

las tues, i wrkd 8hrs + 3 additional hrs..
reachd hm n washd up b4 gg out to send siblings off to redang..
i was soo tired at dat hr cos nvr wrk at dat kind of long hrs..
reachd e place to gather, every1 dwn der askd me wers my bag pack..
i js kp quiet n smiled..
those hu noe y i didnt follow dem, js gv me a pat on my shoulder n smiled at me..
siblings went to redang w 6 more of paternal cous..
e bus was abit delay, n rain startd to fall heavily..
i was shiverg cold at dat time of moment oredi..
hw i wish i was on e bed at dat time..
dey left golden mile complex ard 2300hrs..
n wak ali suggestd to go 4 a sapedek at e nearest kedai mkn..
n so we did..
reachd hm ard 0025hrs n tings hvnt been done..
hvnt iron my uniform, edit pics to develop, etc..
den, smthg hapend..
e door was lockd n mak brought e gate key onli..
n dat time of moment, i was in e state of need of e toilet badly..
i js hv e feeling to 'tompang' e portable toilet dat was available under e void deck s ders 'jempotan'..
i calld abg noh to ask 4 e key..
calld e hm n no one pick up e calls..
both hp of his n kak azra were off..
calld again n again n again..
abah drove off to his hm, to wake dem up..
managed to get thru 1 hr later..
n u noe wat?
dey wasnt asleep..
anak branak tgh dgr misteri jam 12..
mak oi..
dey even didnt hear e doorbell, neither e door being shook nor knockd..
doorbell didnt even hear..
e hm fon, e ringer was off..
aiyoyo..
terok punya olang la mcm ni..

tmrw embark my las dae of attachment at nuh..
it means it will b my las dae of seeing my shaggy..
dats wat my frens call dat prsn..
haha..
n tmrw too, mak will b flying off to vietnam w her 2 elder sis for 5-6 daes..
tmrw too, i will msk keje 3hrs later den my usual time..
haha..
tmrw in e afternoon shift..
nk anta mak punya psl..
n tmrw too, i will js b stayg w my daddy..
mak oi..
pening kpale..
wats e menu 4 those daes mom will b away?
hmm..
ani ideas ani1?

2008-05-16T23:56:00.000+08:00

i js love e edits!!

2008-05-02T23:37:00.007+08:00

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top view of e resort

outside e rm

e sky

smiley mirah playing 'superman' w bibik azi

dad put her on top of e tv, n she still can smile

actuali climbd up e rail js to capture dis pic

e corridor

bathrm b4 it gets e 1st serbu by relatives

at e main lobby

at e lobby lift

guest corner at e lobby

above e receptn counter u can c dis!

im still w my uniform wen i reachd der!

flying kite at pandan reservoir on labour dae

e weather is so e hot!

after wrk on las wed..
i went to pulai spring resort..
js a quick getaway on the eve of labour dae..
on e way der..
hv a incident dat hapend..
we were stuck at e expressway 4 half hr..
e place was awesome!
i love w e interior design..
e lovely craved woods 4 display..
i js love dem!
n since my siblings didnt bring e camera..
i took e pics w my camera fon..
non stop taking pics..
haha..

on e labour dae..
we didnt stay dat long cos adq hv rugby training..
so we went to teban to visit cik jamal..
after visiting..
me n other cous wen to pandan reservoir..
to fly kites..
n dats my 1st time doing it..
cool la..
so besties..
lets hv kite flying session together..
nk tk?

2008-04-20T22:20:00.002+08:00

a wk have passd..
a wk i was being attachd to e hospital..
patients came in and out of e ward..
some patients was being warded long ago..
some patients had an accident..
a bad one, a minor one..
to do hourly parameters at e patients hu js being warded or had finishd an operatn..
life is tiring indeed..
but behind those tiring moments..
i have learnt so many new tings..
frm wat i didnt noe till i noe..
these is was e nurses always do behind e scene..
usuali i came dwn to e hospital to visit relatives n frens..
n c e nurses walking here n der busily to kp update of their records..
since i was being attachd..
nw i noe y..
e 'oh' n 'ah' was being out of my mouth on e 1st dae of attachment..
it hv ans all e qns dat hv been in my mind ever since..
hmm..

mom askd me smthg ydae..
which its still in my head..
wonder hu is dat prsn..
pls owe up if u r dat prsn dat im referring abt..

damn..
todae smthg hapend dat embarrassed me much..
2 incidents..
my crocs shoe was 'flying' instead of e ball..
my bump fell on e ground instead of e ball being kickd..
n it all hapend in front of e boys s well s e coach..
mak oi..
malu sangat2..
dnt even remember wen was e las time i had a fall..
hehe..
e coach even askd if i nd to spray on my hurt part..
i smiled n sae its k..
im ok..
haha..
n dats e 2nd time i fall in front of e coach..
malu mak oi..

2008-04-08T13:19:00.004+08:00

i shld sae thx to kakak..
for bringing hm e caterpillar..
i clean n feed e caterpillar to its nxt stage..
seeing it eating e lime leaves..
n c it pass motion..
hehe..
each stages i hv been eyeing on it ever since..
dad n sis even told me dat it may b died..
s it took a long process to turn to b a beautiful butterfly..
in e am js nw..
i lookd at it again..
it hv black covering..
so i leave it s it is..
wen i came out of e toilet..
mom shoutd out my name..
yahoo..
my butterfly..
lawa giler bangat dong!!
i took lots of its pics..
wah..

2008-04-03T00:16:00.004+08:00

so went to m.i.n.d.s todae..
wani n i was super early..
we had a quick bite frm mr bean..
buying pancake n drink frm e 7-11..
we waitd till dey reachd..
we were early, again..
to reach e m.i.n.d.s..
e acjc hvnt yet reachd..
to kill e time..
we camwhore..
haha..
in e conference rm..
while waiting 4 e vp to come..
haha..
so daring of us..
haha..

after m.i.n.d.s..
went to west mall to buy some kfc food 4 e dearest cous..
b4 proceeding to his hse..
bought a family feast n zinger s he had been craving 4..
went der w my blister feet..
haha..
been pasting plasters all over my feet..
den..
mirah was der too..
gosh..
shes big oredi..
shes soo duper cute n her eye lashes.. (look at e pics)
gosh..
lawa giler!!..
haha..
mcm makcik dia jgak..
haha..
she was super hapi n even laughd wen i make funni faces..
3 mths..
n she oredi ate whipped potato frm kfc..
cool huh..
her mom told me dat she was craving 4 whipped potato wen mirah was in her stomach..
wonder wen will i c mirah again..
miss her oredi..

2008-03-31T21:08:00.002+08:00

las sat..
i went to fuchun pri to help out..
due to some 'disturbing' at hm in e am..
help out watever i can do in dat sch..
ard noon..
i received a call frm e security n askd me if im still in sch..
haha..
hes 'chasing me out' frm e sch..
went out frm e sch few mins later..
further more..
need to attend meeting at al iman ard 2..
while i was waiting 4 e bus to come..
someone shoutd my name frm across..
a man in a white van which is fulld w man-u deco..
haha..
u noe i noe..
semua kat bustop noes my name at dat min..

went to e meeting w dan..
he was damn late la..
his 10 mins leh tahan jgak..
attend meeting regarding e annual nght cycling..
all e familiar faces pop up in front of me..
esp e youths frm assyaafaah..
hmm..
e meeting didnt hold dat long..
ard 4 it ends..
wen to wdlds interchange w e ydo n dan..
met kak azah at civics to fetch me up..

went hm..
askd mak along to twn..
she didnt wan to tag along..
she even story to us dat 1 of her fren was admitted..
to imh..
listen to her story, scary though..
hmm..

wen to twn..
head to heerens 1st..
met cikgu sunita, e son n hakim..
n we talkd abt dis fri event..
so hakim..
gi ke tk?
its nt an apr fool joke..
hehe..
oh..
e purpose of us going to twn is dat..
kak azah treat e both siblings w a budget of 100..
haha..
i was been eyeing on dis fossil purse..
but den..
kak azah 'up' kan lagi e purse n n turns to b a wallet..
price pon pe lagi..
up la..
gone half of it..
bodyguard sis to find her latest top..
but didnt manage to find 1..

hakim calld me n askd me wer do sis parkd her car..
sis dnt even noe which level it was..
haha..

so drove off to faiz plaza..
she bought 2 pairs of shoes..
n me at e las min..
bought a pair of shoe..
tu pon beli pk brape byk kali..
hakim n me was updating each other wer we were..
we intend to hv dinner together..
but den due to e busyness of my sis shopping..
we didnt get to dine together at puncak..
oh well..
me n sis went to puncak to ate our bfast cum lunch cum dinner..
haha..
n sis complain to e aunt dat ders alot of egg shell in her food..
hmm..
total of my budget..
i get 30 in cash..
haha..
thx eh sis..
amalkn slalu..

ydae..
went to fuchun pri again..
had a family picnic in e sch hall..
haha..
exclude my bro s he went 4 his diving lesson..
we stay in der till 4.30pm..
n askd sis to send me to nisa hse to collect some food frm her..
thx nisa 4 e food n e cilli sauce bottle..
hehe..
e boys ate it till nthg left except 4 e plastic spoon..
pas tu..
complain lak..
de makanan tkde air ke kak?
ewah..

2008-03-24T16:35:00.006+08:00

date: 21-23 march 2008
venue: a'famosa resort (melacca)
time to meet: 0515hrs at nearest r&r after link II

i wldnt sae dat much..
cos nw..
i dnt hv e mood to do it so..
so let me js summarize it wat hapend..

dae 1..
we arrived at e resort ard 2.30pm..
5 drivers parkd their precious at e car lot provided..
e kiddies were excited to change into thier swimming suit..
s ders a pte pool located beside e resort..
n me..
i was being sabotaged by my cous..
pushing me dwn to e pool..
n i was drentchd wet..
but didnt stay long in e pool..
due to my condition..
late afternoon..
i did bbq behind e kitchen..
using e electrical grill..
bbq-ing e otah2 s well s e chicken wings..
n e funny tingy was..
i was being electricuted wenever i touchd e food..
haha..
buts its a while onli..
we had a mini bdae celebratn 4 e march babies..
hairil, lud n adq..
big boys oredi..
n during e celebratn..
im still stuck doing e bbq tingy..
tkpe..
late nght..
every1 was holding e urgency of gg to e toilet..
cos ders no water supply..
nt even a single drop u can get..
apart frm dat..
ders no telephone line..
no channels to watch..
e cous hv been calling e hsekeeper abt it..
but faild to come..
dey complaind..
bad..
reali bad customer service..

dae 2..
we went dwn to makhota parade..
play bowling..
nk dikatekn..
all of us participate..
even e uncles aunties n even e small kiddies..
n even e maids..
haha..
its so fun la..
s if we owe e place..
haha..
den we were given 1hr to shop ard..
so e siblings - me n adq..
wen to sushi shop..
n shop 4 sushi..
haha..
we spent nearly rm20..
but its worth of eating it la..
e taste n everyting..
power to e max sia..
sad dat kak cant enjoy it..

dae 3..
we packd our stuffs n bid farewell..

2008-03-20T00:41:00.002+08:00

i was shockd..
totali shockd..
to hear dat wrd frm her mouth..
m i reali dat kind s wat u describe me s?
my mood turnd upside dwn wen u said dat to me..
i kept quiet..
both of us..
my mouth was close tightly w/o a gap..
like smthg being stop me frm opening my mouth..
n ask her y?
i 'hide' myself in e rm..
cover up myself w e pillows dats arranged nicely on e bed..
in such a 'hiding' manner..
i kp asking myself..
m i rong to b close to dem?
i hv been close w dem since i was a kid..
haiz..

2008-03-18T19:52:00.003+08:00

abg was being hospitalised las tues..
due to an operation dat he had on las fri..
nw his condition is getting better..
no more tubing 2 support him frm breathing..
no more nil by mouth..
he can nw sit for hours..
hes nw clear feeds - even though he can eat porridge for nw..
he can joke ard though its a short while..
abg..
do get well soon k..
nanti ur beloved sis ni will buy 4 u boxes of zinger burger..
will fulfil ur wish..
insya'allah..

dis fri im gg out of spore..
again..
to melacca w maternal side..
ders even a pte pool 4 e family..
wow..
sis wldnt b coming along s she hv scouts camp to attend..
im in charge 4 games w my bro n another cous..
but till nw, no plans yet..
was being bz lately?
haha..
i had to do some admin preparatn 4 e soccer boys..
s dey will b entering a soccer competitn dat was being organised by al khair..
so dis thurs..
im gonna hv a meeting w all of e players..
cos dis competitn is a 7 a side game..
w 3 reserve players..

dis sun der will b a meeting w e excos n e m.o.e..
n im nt coming to attend it..
frm my pt of view..
n i js watchd e brite regarding maulud dis yr..
n an nur is involve in it..
i noe its too late 4 me to tell u guys dis..
if u guys r interested..
read e details below..

Brs and Sisters,

Masjid An Nur & By Left is organizing a song writing competition, in remembrance of Muhammad, Prophet for Humanity.

The theme(s) of this competition revolves around Life, Love and Woman
1. The best man benefits most men
2. He loves for others what he loves for himself
3. A good woman adorns and brings blessings to the world

ALL genres (meaning... R&B, Rock, Ballad, Nasheed, Hip Hop, Sentimental, etc) are welcome, but it has to be in Malay.

This is an attempt to enourage young people [incl those who thinks they r young : )) ] to employ their creativity thru' song writing to express themselves on the universal values which Prophet Muhammad s.a.w. expound. You wd recognise that the theme(s) above are the 'matan' of authentic hadiths of Prophet Muhammad s.a.w.

The 1st prize stands to grab $3000 in cash. 2nd, $2,000 and 3rd, $1,000.
The top 10 songs will be cut into an album.

Do contact An Nur Mosque ( Wan Amiju @ 63631383) or By Left (www.byleft.net) if u r interested and/or wd like to find out more.

Please spread the word to your friends, family members, jamaah and acquaintances of this noble effort.
Please see the attached, thanks.

Salam Ukhuwwah Islamiah

2008-03-12T15:04:00.002+08:00

toilet had been my '2nd hm' 4 e past few daes..
had diarrhoea s well s fever..
had dat on las mon..
may e cause of e diarrhoea, eating yong tau foo on mon..
azmi told me dat mayb e prsn didnt rebus it properly..
a fren of mine told me dat diarrhoea was being affectd 6-8 hrs ago..
hmm..
kemungkinan jgak..
n at nght..
i felt e heat at my legs n my eyes were in pain..
kak azra told me dat my face n eyes were red..
i still had no choice but to go to sch on e nxt dae..
cos dats my las paper..
but sad to sae i didnt concentrate dat much on e las paper..
e headache s well s my conditn affectd me..

exams r over..
n nw having hols b4 my 1st attachment starts..
was being attachd to nuh (8 wks) n bukit batok poly (1 wk)..
e nervousness is here even though its a mth more to go..
wish me luck 4 my attachment..

u left w/o a wrd..

2008-02-29T23:32:00.003+08:00

to u..

i heard abt u nt liking e excos..
wen u r involved in e grp..
esp me..
n todae, i heard another shocking news..
frm my besties..
i was wonderg..
is it true dat im e 1 to b blame?
u were nt der at dat time of moment..
hw do u noe its true dat i did dat to ur love ones?
i was e ONE hu bakar e foods frm e starting till e end..
nt onli me, even my besties helpd me out..
y were u nt der wen we hv dat event?
u told us smthg had happend..
i was shockd to c some of ur family came dwn..
even 1 of my family member saw u outside w ur family..
so wer r u?
i bbq-ed e foods 4 ALL e members includg ur love ones..
y did ur love ones told u dat dey dnt get food to eat?
i askd dem to bbq e foods..
if u dnt believe, we hv PROOF..
alot of ppl seeing me doing e bakar..
n nt onli dis bbq..
wen i got close to ur close fren..
i heard dat frm ur close fren dat u were jealous abt it..
i realised abt it..
i made my mistakes..
but den..
im close w ur close fren cos at dat time of moment..
he was e captain of e soccer team..
we had a tournament btwn all e mosques..
i nd to liase w him..
cos im e middle prsn btwn ur close fren n e coach..
m i still in e rong?

pls u..
feel free to approach me wen u nd to talk me..
esp wen it comes to my matter..
im sori dat i hv hurt u in any way..
cos i noe i hv sakitkan ur hati..
since e start u hv noe me..
im sori frm e bottom of my heart..

frm me

2008-02-19T20:39:00.002+08:00

so sori guys 4 nt updating my bloggie..
i hv been signing in n out of e blog..
cos i was in e blank wen e white box dat awaiting me to type in e latest entry..
n nw here m i..
updating u wat had hapend 4 e passd nearly a mth..

tings hv been gg upside dwn in life..
3 wks more to end module exam..
time pass by fast..
i hv spent 7 wks in sch..
studying n doing practicals 4 my coming attachment..
sitting 4 my class test n phase test..
i cnt disappoint my parents..
i nd to wrk hard 4 dis..

s on e other side..
i myself dono wats in me..
hv i been doing e rght ting lately?
wats in my head?
wat i hv been tinking?
doing it so, is it correct?
haiz..
i told besties abt it..
i tried..
but i will meet wen it comes on wkends..
n im e big head of e team wen smthg hapen..
hw do i get involve in such situatn?

2008-01-23T21:56:00.000+08:00

hi ppl..
sori 4 nt updating my bloggie..
ben bz lately..
sch..
studies..
new topics..
new subjects..
new lecturers..
new environment..
its all new i shld sae..

31 jan onwrds..
im having test every wk..
frm nafa test..
to class test every wk..
even hv phase test on e dae e youths having bbq..
oh no..
so many tings dat i nd to do..
n abg is didnt even noe dat i startd schooling..
n he even sabo me to b e organizer 4 e bbq..
n lately even..
i was being electd to b e 'mgr' 4 e youth soccer team..
n it means i nd to come on e wkends..
my wkends r burnt js like dat..
gosh..

i nd a jacket 4 my lectures..
hint hint..
hehe..

2008-01-01T05:01:00.000+08:00

hapi new yr every1..!!

4 e 1st time..
celebratd countdwn outside w cous..
hehe..
total strentgh together w e siblings = 14 ppl..
went to marina sq to hv dinner w kak siti n gang..
waitd 4 abg noh n family to arrive b4 we proceed to our place..
wen we reachd to our spot..
its gonna b 2-3 mins to 2008..

darn!
e firewrks was awesome..
but some of e firewrks r being blkd due to e tall trees..
wishd dat e trees was being tebang b4 new yr..
so dat we can c e clear view of it..

after watching it..
we rushd back to marina sq..
watching movie titled 'national treasure'..
well..
i admit dat in e 1st part of it..
it makes me wanna sleep..
till e middle part of e show..
it became more exciting..
n its funni too..
popcorns r everywer at our place..
nabil slept during e movie..
hehe..
b4 we leave e cinema..
we took photo..
n adq told e cameraman dat we r tourists..
haha..
e jakon tourists frm 'msia'..
haha..

darn..
in dis pic..
my smile like a dracula..
haha..

after e movie..
we made our way to adam corner to hv supper..
heavy supper..
haha..
had a great new yr ever..

7 jan will b another history i will make in life..
2 yrs of challenges..
hope family n frens will support me all e way till e end..
insya'allah..

do u noe hw much i love u both?

2007-12-29T00:10:00.000+08:00

2-0..
walking ard wdlds e whole afternoon w frens..
den had dinner w bro kat banquet..
onli e 2 of us..
n met sis later at e time zone..

while waiting 4 dem to finish their wrk..
i was hearing ria..
dedicatn by dedicatn dat fiza o read on air..
den came to dis part..

'drpd kak su, kpd saudaranya, nur aziah hj roslan.. yg menyambut ulang tahun yg ke 20.. fiza o, call la dia.. dis sedih sebab tk dpt celebrate together w her parents.. parents gi haji.. n bla bla bla..'

ambek kau obat..
full name..
nasib baek i was hearing ria at dat time of moment..
n nasib baek she told on air she wldnt call cos ders alot of request..
phew..
den she sing dis bdae song..
lagu frm 1 of ning baizura song..
haha.,
funni la she..
she repeated my name twice..
1 is aziah..
n another nur aziah..

waited 4 adq at cosway pt 4 dinner..
mcm couple lak..
haha..
adq ate 2 dishes..
teriyaki chicken n chicken rice..
mak oi..
tk kenyang2 seh..
den while waiting 4 sis to come..
i pamperd myself by buying havainnas sandals..
a bdae present 2 e bdae gal..
haha..
den bring adq to time zone..
few mins later sis pop up..
she told us she wanna buy crocs..
so dwn we wen to e shop..
n sis bought a pair of crocs 4 me too..
haha..
i shld hv wait 4 her to come n buy both pairs at e same time..

regarding abt e gadget..
i will tink back again..
hmm..

had interview abt my nursing..
wen well..
hope i will get positive ans on mon afternoon..

2007-12-26T23:33:00.000+08:00

ydae had a hse warming cum bdae celebratn w paternal cous..
e food theme 4 ydae was western since ydae was chirtmas..
we js sat n chit chat all e way..
e food was nice..
few hrs later..
ders a log cake frm swensens..
1 of e bdae dec gal request 4 it..
ders 2 women n 1 ending-e-teenager-life-soon celebrating bdae together..
cute e log cake..
n its choc!!
haha..

tonite had dinner cum surprise bdae w maternal aunts, uncle n cous..
me n sis had sushi for e 1st n 2nd round..
haha..
ders belot..
yum2..
n after e 2nd rd ends..
my stomach was full..
so i paused 4 a few mins b4 i continue my dish..
n dats beef hotplate..
we sat der till e place wanna close dwn..
n we were sitting dwn..
giving e food 2 digest..
e sakura staff bring out a bdae cake - cheesecake..
n ders 2 BIG candles..
oh no..
n i was blushing at dat time of moment..
n dat time i was telling sis..
'hw i wish parents were here celebrating together..'
n i cried soon after..
at e same time i was being sabo-ed by my adq n cous..
choc ice cream, cheesecake n bbq sauce ard my face!
n i receive present frm mummy..
thx ppl 4 celebrating my bdae n remember it..
im touchd..

fri..
cnt wait 4 fri..
adq n cous will accompani me to buy e gadget..
ders new color-red..
sexy seh..
hehe..
n im turing 2 telor on dat dae..
hehe..

i hv enroll todae..
wonder wen will b nxt 1 class..
sori nisa didnt wait 4 u..
i will accompani u wen u wanna enroll k..
love u n ju..

2007-12-17T00:33:00.000+08:00

haha..
i cnt believe it!!
hady mirza!!
u made sporeans PROUD of u..
u won e asian idol!!
fuyoo!!
sis askd me to vote 4 him..
i insistd..
in e end, i did..
haha..
n its worth it voting 4 him..
i shoutd wen dey pronouncd hady's name..
n it was like mdnght..
lucky tkde org complain..
haha..
no matter wat..
im proud of u hady!!

parents had left spore..
their flight was their las flight..
i miss dem oredi..
since dey step in e immigratn counter..
had las hug frm parents..
hope dey will get haji yg mabrur..
amin..

2007-12-09T20:07:00.000+08:00

had bdae celebratn 4 ju..
we had it in advance cos her bdae falls on wkdae..
haha..
she was shockd wen she saw me n e cous n nabilah..
waiting eagerly 4 her n nisa to arrive..
haha..
didnt xpect her to gv dat kind expression..
thx to nisa..
she treat us n gang mkn pizza hut..
w e help of ammar discount 4 staff..
den we headed to starbucks 4 coffee..
s e bdae gal wans to dring her moccha iced blended..
we sat..
w za ard..
its been a long time e 4 of us didnt sit together in 1 table..
ju open up her present..
she cried wen she receivd nisa present esp..
a plaque to her - long lasting fren..
den a las min decision..
e 3 of us watchd movie - enchanted..
za didnt come along cos shes studyg 4 her paper tmrw..
well its worth of watching it..
its funny..
even though e theater didnt fill alot of ppl..
e laugh was loud enuf though..
its been a long time i didnt watch movie..

ju..
hapi ?? bdae..
hehe..
love u lots..

i love my new gadget..
thx abah..
love u..

2007-12-04T22:58:00.000+08:00

pissed off!!
dats e rhgt twrd dat i can describe abt me nw..
i wonder hw e organizer wrks in dis manner..
n happily gv e opponent 3 pts n 3 goals..
for FREE..
i received a call frm bro zul n askd me if we hv match ydae..
s far s i noe, ders no match ydae n e nxt match will b dis sat..
n wen i open bro is email, i saw n updated schedule..
der WAS a match YDAE..
e v 1st schedule, dey informd abg is by msg..
tp y nt e 2nd updated schedule?
hus fault is dis?
abg is or e organizer?

argh!!
@#$%^

2007-11-20T00:23:00.000+08:00

u shld watch dis..
my fren recommend me to watch it..
its a sad 1 even though its nt e 1st time i watch it..
he hv done so much sacrifices to e gal..
will he b e 1 in e future?
hmm..

someone do dis maths calculatn..
wen dat prsn is half awake..
he sae dis equatn..
4 divide by 2 is equal to 8..
haha..
maths dpt a star..
haha..

2007-11-15T17:44:00.000+08:00

so went i go to ps..
to collect her new sim card..
otw back hm..
in e train..
had a 'noise pollution'..
4 ladies or gals i shld call dem..
las cabin at e v end seat..
mak oi..
i put my mp3 at e max vol pon leh dgr ktawe dorang..
goodness..
den saw dis water bottle rolld dwn to my place area..
i pretend nt to c n continue reading my novel..
e gals came in front of me..
i continue reading up e novel..
pretending im blind..
i noe im bad..
haha..
den came e 2nd time..
i felt like dey were talking to me..
but den i heard nthg due to e vol of my mp3..
den dey show me smthg..
n i pretend like a shockd face..
haha..
n i smiled n dey walkd away..

reachd yck..
saw dis familiar face..
my 'long lost' bestie..
hehe..
she hugged me in front of everybody..
malu seh..
hehe..
we talkd n talkd..
she was like promoting dis adidas brand..
her bag..
her sweater..
haha..
n i dstrb her abt her 'upgarded' hp..
she beat me..
fuyoo..
tk padan kecik..

2007-11-14T22:53:00.000+08:00

SILLY..
superb SILLY..
dat wrd goes to someone hum i noe dat much..
none other den..
my SISTER..
my beloved SISTER..
nt even a mth..
she hv committed a crime..
a crime dat she will b sad over w..
haha..
she crushd her w660i..
w her toyota vios..
yes..
u ppl read it correctly..
her toyota vios tyre had crushed her w660i..
into pieces..
she tot it was e rock..
she realisd it wen she wanna make a call..
haha..
e story goes..
she put her hp on e car boot while talking w her other frens..
after several mins of enjoyment talking w her frens..
she forgot abt her hp..
n wen into e car to proceed her nxt destinatn..
den she heard smthg being smashd..
n she realised dat it was her hp instead of e rock..
haha..

but e prsn hu being e culprit to take her new sim card..
none other den her gd sis..
n dats me..
haha..
its k..
at least ders little kiddie accompany me tmrw..
hmm..

so e moral of e story..
dnt put ur hp on e car boot even though its a while..
put ur hp at e safe place..
=)

2007-11-10T23:00:00.000+08:00

watchd dealova at rtm1 wen nyayi senah n daughter came..
didnt even talkd w dem much cos my mood kinda nt ok..
entertain myself by watchg dat stori in my parents rm..
didnt go out till dey wanna go back hm..
n continue after dat n nt even cleaning up e mess..
nt sure y e feeling of hate was der..

looking at her sometime makes me wonder..
hu is she?
y is she behaving in dis manner?
y e attitude of selfish is in her?
y she kp tinking abt her own self n nt e others?
dnt even care wat other feels?
does she noe all dat?
i guess she dnt even realise it..
been bz w wrk..
dnt even care wats happening ard her..
dnt even noe e hu ha dat happens ard her..
dnt even bother i suppose?
i love her..
i wanna advice her..
i tried..
but i faild..
nw its all up to her..
im js disappointd in wat shes doing 2wrds me n e rest..
haiz..

got to find out dat parents r leaving on e 15 dec..
which falls on e sat..
n its 13 daes b4 i celebrate my 'old dae'..
kinda sad..
cos its e 1st time celebratg it w/o dem ard..
hw i wish..

2007-11-09T01:44:00.000+08:00

read comments in ur frenster..
n got to find out abt ur current status..

y my heart aches wen i noe abt dat?

2007-11-07T19:20:00.000+08:00

FITNAH..
wats dat mean?
i look up in e dictionary n dis is wat its stated..
' hasut ; umpat'..

does he noe e meaning of fitnah in e 1st place?
does he noe wat is he trying to sae?
does he noe dat watever he said hv a related to me?
does he noe all dat?

he told e ppl hu came dwn todae..
said dat e PRSN hu tell abg abt it, membuat FITNAH..
so is he trying to sae I tell fitnah to abg abt his plan?
cos im e 1 hu tell abg abt his plan..

i tried to cntrl my anger..
cos i noe at dat time of moment..
my face hv changed..
i nearly sae vulgar wrds..
but yet i cntrl it..

soon after he noes dat IM e 1 hu tell abg..
he gvs sort of reasons..
1 of e reason is dat..
hes DEAF cos it happend at nght..
wth?!
hw can he accused him js like dat?
goodness..

2007-11-05T16:02:00.000+08:00

met e youths regarding their proposal n some personal stuffs dat dey r nt satisfy w..
was js wondering..
if their proposal get approve by e ydo s well s e others..
dey discuss s if e proposal hv been approve..
i js kp quiet..
n js hear watever dey sae..
n write dwn watever dey ask me to write dwn..

tmrw ders a meeting w e ydo s well s e exco..
doing e structure of e youths..
semua da over excited w e electn..
esp dat some1..
u noe wat i mean rght besties?
haha..

sometimes i was js wondering..
is dis e reali him?
his behaviour?

hmm..

2007-11-01T01:39:00.000+08:00

ydae nght..
attended meeting w e rest of e mmb..
regarding e postmortem of ramadhan..
bobal panjang sakan..
even e boys get tired..
n dey helpd demselves by taking e mee rebus..
n eat s a grp..
while e boys doing dat..
nisa is doing her abstract art..
drawing abt her 20 yrs of life..
hehe..
nisa..
jgn lupe post it in e bloggie k?

den comes e part of e youth..
lucky ders bro is hu do e talking..
bobal nye bobal..
he passd e mike to me regarding e after 8..
i was like..
i lookd at nisa..
n she js said 'js said aniting..'
n at dat time e boys was like clapping their hands loudly..
oh no..
n every eyes of e mmb look at e back..
waitg 4 a sentence frm me..
takot seh..
haha..

later roy will b coming dwn to my hse..
he will b frm camp..
s he hv course..
it will b so awkward if hes coming here alone..
hope hes bringing azli along..
its been a long time i didnt meet dem..
since e time of our las meet up..
rght boys? =)

after 4 a long time chatting in msn..
we finali got to meet each other ydae..
lau tk psl abg wan dtg to come dwn to my hse 4 raya..
i dnt tink till nw we will meet kn?
hope dat it wldnt b e 1st n e las meet..

2007-10-31T00:27:00.000+08:00

271007..

had a jln raya w ndp peeps..
start meetg w kenneth sashi at sbw mrt..
he was late cos he rushd back hm frm camp..
wen all e way to lakeside..
tot we were late..
n we got to find out dat we r super early..
kenneth approachd to dis guy..
which i noe its eqin guy..
so i kept myself a distance frm dem..
den..

h: ni kak fadhil eh?
a: *js tinking hw he noes my adq*
a: yup.. hw u noe im his sis?
h: u look like him.. a: reali?
h: dulu we r in e same pri sch, dulu tggl teban kn?
a: *i was like, huh? hw he noe?*
a: ni azizul hakim eh? *quick guess*
h: nodded

wat a small world to meet him..
its been a long time i didnt meet him n his family..
so we wen to fana hse..
followd by azizul hse..
at azizul hse, kecoh la..
w his mom etc..
den we go to ghazri hse..
we stayd long der cos we were waitg 4 ju to arrive..
den to my hse..
ponkat umah kecoh jgak bab e family met w azizul..
den we went to rashid hse..
e blues was being camouflagd w his wall - blue..
den we went to ju hse..
followd by ain hse..
den to eqin followd by naq..
kat umah naq..
we went CRAZY..
hehe..
had foto session..

family portrait..
hehe..
had fun..

281007..

had jln raya w an nur youths..
start at 1000hrs - 2200hrs..
alhamdulillah..
we completed 18 hses in 12hrs..
even though ders some hu ha here n der..
settled e hse at sembawang 1st..
den followd by admiralty..
woodlands n marsiling..
we had fun..
but most of e youths r wearg orange..
n nisa didnt wear her songket..

sob..
but its k..
paling penting skali,u r der w us, kan nisa?
hehe..

2007-10-30T17:07:00.001+08:00

2007-10-30T13:54:00.000+08:00

e link
http://haiza-aziah.fotopages.com
for both jln raya..
271007 - jln raya w ndp peeps
281007 - jln raya w an nur youths

2007-10-25T16:45:00.000+08:00

2007-10-15T22:58:00.000+08:00

Doa Perpisahan

By: Brothers

Pertemuan kita di suatu hari

Menitikkan ukhuwah yang sejati

Bersyukurku kehadap Illahi

Di atas jalinan yang suci

Namun kini perpisahan yang terjadi

Dugaan yang menimpa diri

Bersabarlah diatas suratan

Kutetap pergi jua

Kan kuutuskan salam ingatanku

Dalam doa kudusku sepanjang waktu

Ya Allah bantulah hamba-Mu

Mencari hidayah dari pada-Mu

Dalam mendidikan kesabaranku

Ya Allah tabahkan hati hamba-Mu

Diatas perpisahan ini

O.. uwo.. ho..

Teman betapa pilunya hatiku

Menghadapi perpisahan ini

Pahit manis perjuangan

Telah kita rasa bersama

Semoga Allah meredhoi

Persahabatan dan perpisahan ini

Teruskan perjuangan

Kan kuutuskan salam ingatanku

Dalam doa kudusku sepanjang waktu

Ya Allah bantulah hamba-Mu

Senyuman yang tersirat di bibirmu

Menjadi ingatan setiap waktu

Tanda kemesraan bersimpul padu

Kenangku di dalam doamu

Semoga...

Tuhan berkatimu

Oo.. ho.. o...

ydae..
e youths had visitd him at e hospital in e afternoon..
n ydae too..
at 2110hrs..
receivd msg frm abg fawzi..
e msg..
an unspoken msg..
quickly forward e msg to e other youths..
was reciting alfatihah in my heart..
couple of times..

a responsible, caring bro..
a joker..
an ust hu guides e youths..
u hv given ur patience n guidance to us..
to b a responsible youth..
i miss ur smile..
i miss wen u sae 'senyum tu,bukak mata besar2 sikit'..
i miss ur lame jokes..
i miss wen u r wearg ur turban..
i miss ur calls regardg abt e youths, esp..

guess e las farewell dat we did 4 u..
was reali ur LAST farewell..
n on dat nght..
e youths had great laugh..
e rm was filld w ur laughter esp..
u laughd alot w us on dat nght..
n we dnt even noe..
on dat dae..
dat moment..
will b e las time we will c each other..

e nght b4 it happend..
e besties flippd through ur photos..
on e big event, which is e youth in charge..
u were dancing zapin w hafiz..
dat was e time e youths saw u were such a hapi-go-lucky man..
i still remember u sabo-ed me to do zapin..
but in e end i do chicken dance instead..
e photos on ur farewell dinner..
lookd at e photos wen u were having fun w e kids of after 8..
sitting together w e other youths..
looks like u r still young..

alfatihah..
allahyarham ust md rafiq bin yahya..
03.10.82 - 14.10.07
Senyuman yang tersirat di bibirmu..
Menjadi ingatan setiap waktu..
Tanda kemesraan bersimpul padu..
kami akan slalu kenangmu didalam doa kita semua..
astaufirullah..

2007-10-11T01:45:00.001+08:00

todae marks e dae..
we had 3 celebratn in 1 nght..
1 - las dae of after 8
2 - mini celebratn 4 youth in charge
3 - farewell celebratn 4 ust rafiq
i wonder if he goes..
will e youths still b s strong s dis?
s hapi s dis?
hmm..

n while i was cleaning up my rm..
i saw dis pic..
hehe..
a memorable pic..
e 1 hum been 'blockd' by e flash is azfar n fazli..
im surprised dat i can remember their names..
esp e malays..
n some of e chinese..
search wer m i..
hehe..

2007-10-08T12:21:00.000+08:00

6 oct 2007..
youth in charge at e an nur mosque..
we had total strength of 44 ppl, including nisa love 1s..
all i can sae is ALHAMDULILLAH..
we nvr had a big family b4 in e youth..
we had ice breaking session w dem..
it was fun..
esp wen we playd e game 'concentratn'..
ju kena to e max..
hehe..
n i get e forfeit too..
nisa get to escape..
lucky her..

after zohor..
we had amazing race..
n my grp get e 1st place..
we didnt even took half n hr to search 4 e tings..
cos e tings dat we nd to look 4 is ard e corner..
hehe..

den..
our stress time begins..
e 3 in charge was like going here n der..
making sure dat everyting wen on smooth..
i even wen in 2 e kitchen to cut e fruits..
hehe..
it was fun wen im like being a big sis to e small bro..
teaching dem hw to cut e fruits..
we talkd, laughd, n cut e fruits..
enjoyable..
but wen it comes to e iftar part..
e in charge was like going up n dwn..

den attend 4 e mmt..
it was e most touching nght ever..
nvr seen bro is n ust cried b4..
e act..
was a succeed 1 even though bro is had done lot of back ups..
i was shockd wen ust told us abt his past..
but thank god..
dat he had realisd it earlier b4 its too late..
he..
had become my 'motivator' in life..
even though ders some misunderstanding n arguments w him..
n..
ust..
nk kawin tu jgn lupe jempot kite org eh..
hehe..

2007-09-22T13:20:00.000+08:00

me n nisa had ock 4 buka ydae at e dewan..
n he tego us dat we had nt enuf food to eat..
nisa ans of behalf of me too..
hmm..
few mins later..
another miscommunicatn..
btwn us n e others..
kita jgak yg kene jd victim..
laen kali kalau ckp tu, buat jgak la..
tkmo maen ckp je..
da tau dia tu panas baran..
uat pe nk janji sane sini..
haiz..
wen after 8 starts..
i get a confrontatn w 1 of e bro..
asking me wat actuali hapend 2 daes ago..
hmm..
he noes e stori but yet he askd me..
pe ni..
up to u la..
s far s im concernd..
we, e youths, noe wat we r doing..
n if u trust dem more den us..
go ahead..
we dnt b bother n js wait n c hw it goes..

2007-09-20T23:07:00.000+08:00

I HATE U..!!

argh

2007-09-18T01:18:00.000+08:00

dis is wat happend wen u r nt careful in e kitchen..

c ani difference?
yup..
i had a gigantic little toe..
dat was being hit by a bottle glassed of nescafe..
i dnt mind if its a small bottle..
but in dis case, its a BIG bottle..
i got hit frm e base of e bottle..
which is the THICK glass..
e bottle committed suicide wen i opend up e cupboard..
i was like rolling here n der in e kitchen..
crying in pain..
but both my siblings can even laughd at me..
haha..
dey didnt get it..
dey dnt feel e pain..
dats y dey can laughd at me..
hmph..
it was a very hard impact..
but e glass didnt crack..
gd huh..
bestie told me its internal bleeding..
adq said mayb e bone crackd due to e impact..
js wait n c 4 tmrw result..

2007-09-15T00:46:00.000+08:00

ohk..
i noe..
its been a long time i didnt update e blog..
well..
1stly wld like to sae congrats to abg zul..
he was engaged las sat..
n i was e official photographer on dat dae..
haha..
luckily he was satisfied w e overalll pics dat i took 4 him..
phew..

life seems to b pretti bz since ramadan is here..
after wrk, nd to attend 4 after 8..
dnt even noe wen i can fulli rest at hm 24/7..
haha..

todae had an ice breaking w e kids 4 after 8..
we had chop chilli chop, dog n bone n hu is e murderer..
well..
chop chilli chop e kids didnt noe hw to start it..
but thx to nisa, she do it ssslllloooowwwwllllyyy...
so dat e kids can follow..
but wen it comes to ammar, i cnt stop laughing..
still remember wat he did ydae during our discussion..
haha..
after dat we playd dog n bone..
kecoh to e max seh..
even ummi n amir playd along w e kids..
we had debrief b4 we went hm..
seems like e exco nds to come dwn..
hmm..

hey bestie..
cheer up aite..
no matter wat, me n nisa will b der 4 u..
through thick n thin..
js beep ani of us up if u feel like talking to some1..
smile..

2007-09-04T01:08:00.000+08:00

a conversatn btwn colleagues on las thurs (mlm jumaat)..

s: kak nk gi p.a ah..
n: p.a tu pe?
a: p.a tu police academy..
s: tkde la.. pusara abadi..
n: huh? pusara abadi? kat ne tu?
a: kat jln bahar la.. near to e cd area der..
n: de pe kat sane? kak nk jumpe kak nye bf kat pusara abadi eh?
s: eh, kau tau tk pusara abadi tu tmptnye ape?
a: oi.. kubo la..

haha..
she dnt even noe wats pusara abadi was..
n todae we talkd abt it again..
recalling back wat had happend..
its so damn funni..
i laughd till tears came..
indeed a memorable experienced w dem..

1 more wk to go b4 we start our ramadhan..
hw fast time flies..

2007-08-26T16:12:00.001+08:00

food n us at charcoal

chef wanna be

e night outdoor shooting

had dinner at charcoal ydae nght..
its a restaurant of shatec..
had bread 4 appetizer..
n we r e most koecohrable family ever der..
combine w e siblings of mom, lagi kecoh..
haha..
we had our dishes..
n 1 dish dat i cnt even swallow is e soup..
wantan chicken w ginseng roots..
i onli ate e wantan but not e soup..
e smell of e ginseng is too strong dat i nearly vomit..
haha..
after dat..
e siblings wen 4 an outdoor shooting at e esplanade..
passing by e water bay reminds me of e ndp times..
i miss e ppl esp..

2007-08-19T17:23:00.000+08:00

half of cluster d

w mentors

w adam n faris

w kenneth n kenneth

w eqin

w faris

w fazli

w rasyid

cluster d

ydae had our ndp appreciatn dinner at ite simei..
all of us were wearing black or white..
e theme of our cluster on dat dae..
while waitg 4 aini to reach, i met hadi..
hehe..
so reachd der ard 1830hrs..
kecoh seh wen i step in e cafeteria..
ppl were enjoyg w e foods n e ppl ard dem..
we took pics here n der..
non stop..
haha..
frm e hall way to e toilet..
e kids were mad ydae..
rasyid, eqin n ain performd..
here w/o u by 3 doors dwn..
my heart was touchd wen i heard dem sang..
wanna cried but i hold on..
after e dinner, we went to east pt..
frm ite simei we walkd..
sat at starbucks w e rest..
but stayd a while s i rushd dwn another place to meet my family..
had a great nght..
im missing cluster d nw..

photos r uploading..
will let u guys noe wen its completed..

2007-08-13T23:21:00.000+08:00

e eve of ndp..
kak faizah mengidam to eat durian..
n since dat..
she askd e maternal sides along..
n e meeting time is at 2330hrs at kallang..
at dat time of moment wen kak azah msgd me regardg dat..
im still had my meeting w e ydo regardg e ramadhan dis yr..
v tight e schedule was i shall sae..
so forget abt e meetg..
so we met..
sat at 1 of e shop dat abg azmi brought us..
n dey ate their durian..
while me, a'an (abg alfiz fren) n arissa ate other fruits..
haha..
we r nt e hantu durian tau..

national dae was great..
didnt get to get ani pics s i forget to bring my camera..
but no matter wat..
we had lotsa fun..
we shout s loud s we could..
till we had no voice after dat..
haha..

fri..
took off s i followd my family to malacca..
abg noh family followd us along..
my dad had bookd e place in advance..
we leave hm ard 0700hrs..
n reachd malacca ard 1030hrs..
so while waitg to check in..
we went to parkson to hv our brunch..
at e chicken rice shop..
den we shop..
me n sis bought shades 4 each of us..
n sis paid 4 it..
haha..

cool? =)

e nght..
we went for bowling..
it seems like its been a long time i didnt spent dat much time w e family..
nabil n arissa too participated in e game..
dey were totali awesome..
hehe..

am comes..
n e siblings were lazy to wake up 4 their bfast..
instead e parents went..
so e afternoon was spent at e historical place n megamall..
wen i step in e place..
it reminds me wen i was still a young gal..
so many tings hv been changed..
no more a&w..
no more log swings dat i used to swing with together w sis..
n even e kreta kerbau hv been shiftd another place..
n nw e place hv been renovated to megamall..
in e megamal..
e sis shop s if like ders nthg hapen..
haha..
sis n i bought 2 baju each..
all of it r frm padini..
both mine r having sale..
n its 50% off..
haha..
4 sis, its nt..
dinner, we went klebang..
saw cik mamat n family der too..
wat a coincidence..
haha..
had a great hols even though its a short 1..

2007-08-04T16:39:00.000+08:00

latest pic of me n my 2 beloved sis

its kinda bored wen ders nthg to do during e weekend..

esp todae..

i hv no ndp prac n will c e cluster on e actual dae..

n todae s well s tmrw..

i will b helpg out e hajjah amnah catering services..

another weekend will b burn..

n apart of dat..

e maternal side have a chalet at ecp..

so it means dat i will b gg 4 e chalet after e rewang 4 todae ends..

gosh..

another tiring weekend for me s well s e others..

2007-07-27T23:53:00.001+08:00

collage of e colleagues..

place taken - in e toilet =)

wat dae is it tmrw?
its sat..
yahoo..
n wat do i hv on sat?
its my ndp prac..
tmrw its gonna b e preview..
n we onli hv 1 more prac to go b4 it comes to e actual dae..
aaww..
im gonna miss all e peeps of cluster d..
their smiles, their laughter n lame jokes hv brighten up e spirit..
cluster d..
u r being missd by me..
muah..